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Well folks I guess its high time I update this horrible thing. not really horrible just a thing.
I have to say I have been doing so hot this weekend. We'll start of w/ last monday.
MOnday-School and the first night of forte practice. We learned the dance and went through it and I wasn't doing to well.
Tuesday-School and the second night of forte practice. I went and worked with Kyrsten and Erica and Skyler and I got the hardest part of the whole thing down. I went home and worked on my toe touches which were terrible.
Wednesday-More School and yet again forte practice. Forte went better but it was a lil ner racking seeing how there was only one more day left of practice. I also somehow pulled a muscle in PE so I couldn't work on toe touches or kicks that night.
Thursday- Guess more school and another night of forte-the last night of forte practice. I was only struggling w/ one part but I was pretty sure I had it down by the end of the night. My toe touches weren't lookin so hot still.
Friday-The big day. I went to school then I went home and had to watch Simon then left to go to the school and it was auditon night. Moment of truth came and I went out in front of the judges and I performed what I thought was my best. I only messed up twice I was pretty sure in the 2 times I performed it. The first time it was in my kicks and the second time I was a couple counts too early. Well I was pretty confident and when I got there later on after the posters were posted I didn't see my name. That is the most sickening feeling to look up at the board and not see your name anywhere. I almost threw up. I asked the coach if I could see my score sheets and by that point I was in tears and we went through it and all across the board it said work on toe touches and I had a pretty smile. Almost all of them told me I shouldn't be on any of the squads. I couldn't take it. I left. 3 years in a row now I haven't made it. I just didn't understand.
I do now though. I'm not meant to dance. So I decided I'm done w/ it. I'm not wasting any more of my time on something I'm not meant to be doing. Some may see it as quitting but I'm nto a quitter so think of it like this. I'm stopping something I'm not meant to be doing. period. thats all there is to it.
So friday I also started feeling sick and yesterday it got worse and I was pretty much felt sorry for myself all day which caused me to snap at Lis yesterday and Lis I'm sorry for that. I was pretty mad up until I talked to Steve. We had a really good convo. He just told me something that happened to him and how he related to me and it felt good to have someone to relate to. I don't have that very often so thanks Steve.
Today I'm still sick and I didn't go to church and the nI got stuck babystitting tonight and Simon omg was a pain in the butt. but now I'm online and theres no one else really on so yay for that. leave some comments ya'll. It took a while on that last post.
Hugs and Kisses,
~Tiffanie Lynn~