livejournal is for whining, so here i go.
last night i went to the black cat for majority rule. marshall was supposed to come up for it, but he has to work, so i went solo. he missed a good show. it was the first time for awhile i've had a great time at a show like that. i was drenched in sweat, i could barely hear, my arms hurt from keeping them up so long, it was great. also, the area its in, that "U St. Historic District" is awesome. i want to live there, even if it means i have to drive more. its probably expensive.
i called katie afterwards since i was in such high spirits and didnt feel like just going home and going to bed. it brought me down fast for some reason. we went to some small gathering of people from her play for all of 20 minutes, and even though i kinda wanted to go at first, and i felt good going in, i dont know, i felt uneasy after awhile. they were all real nice and seemed interested to meet me, but it was like--all eyes on me--it seemed like they were being too nice and too interested. maybe its just me. im not really used to that.
speaking of which, i've been kind of fucked up lately. i'll be in good consistent moods for two weeks, then i'll be down for another two, then back up. i'm on my way down right now. but atleast i know its cyclical. thats kind of a comfort.
i think it has something to do with my now-6-week absence from consistent drug/alcohol use. i havent smoked in 6 weeks straight. i've drank minimally; and not to the point of drunkeness. in a way, it keeps me from being able to hang out with some people.
its all because i'm waiting on this dumb fucking valet job from the hyatt, so i dont know if ill be drug tested or not. peerce's plantation hired me as a valet, but they're just going to call once in awhile when they need extras. i dont have a set schedule, mainly because i'm leaving in 8 weeks. so hopefully this hyatt job will happen next week, and if i dont get the job, i will be furious.
tomorrow is the 4th, so i'm going to virginia to katie's friend's house. its basically the only party that is available for me to go to. so there will definitely be pot. we'll see if i break this 6 week thing. i may as well, considering i'm probably not going to be hired by anyone else this summer. and maybe if i do, i can try to pull off something like i did at valley last summer.
ho-hum.. this summer is rather boring. and its half over, so i dont see if magically getting better. because if it does, it will get better right before i have to leave.
i called katie afterwards since i was in such high spirits and didnt feel like just going home and going to bed. it brought me down fast for some reason. we went to some small gathering of people from her play for all of 20 minutes, and even though i kinda wanted to go at first, and i felt good going in, i dont know, i felt uneasy after awhile. they were all real nice and seemed interested to meet me, but it was like--all eyes on me--it seemed like they were being too nice and too interested. maybe its just me. im not really used to that.
speaking of which, i've been kind of fucked up lately. i'll be in good consistent moods for two weeks, then i'll be down for another two, then back up. i'm on my way down right now. but atleast i know its cyclical. thats kind of a comfort.
i think it has something to do with my now-6-week absence from consistent drug/alcohol use. i havent smoked in 6 weeks straight. i've drank minimally; and not to the point of drunkeness. in a way, it keeps me from being able to hang out with some people.
its all because i'm waiting on this dumb fucking valet job from the hyatt, so i dont know if ill be drug tested or not. peerce's plantation hired me as a valet, but they're just going to call once in awhile when they need extras. i dont have a set schedule, mainly because i'm leaving in 8 weeks. so hopefully this hyatt job will happen next week, and if i dont get the job, i will be furious.
tomorrow is the 4th, so i'm going to virginia to katie's friend's house. its basically the only party that is available for me to go to. so there will definitely be pot. we'll see if i break this 6 week thing. i may as well, considering i'm probably not going to be hired by anyone else this summer. and maybe if i do, i can try to pull off something like i did at valley last summer.
ho-hum.. this summer is rather boring. and its half over, so i dont see if magically getting better. because if it does, it will get better right before i have to leave.