Dec 25, 2017 17:32
I'm trying really hard to not reach out to you because I know you don't ever want to hear from me again so I'll just talk to you here like I've done in the past.
I miss you and Lena and Lux. Not a day goes by that I don't think about all of you. I'm so sorry that I couldn't be the person you wanted and deserved. I tried to be. That was the point of the exercise and the medication and everything; it was all for you. Well, it was for me so I could be comfortable knowing that I was the right person for you.
I still love you even though I know that doesn't mean anything now.
I hope that everything works out for you and that you and the baby are doing well and that your Christmas is full of love and laughter and all of the things that I can't give to you but want to so desperately.
Merry Christmas. I love you and I miss you and I'm sorry.