Here it is
The original entry that seemed to have caused the issue with the first name of the person it was directed to removed.
I don't know any other way of getting through to you other than this this seems to be the only way you really really hear me
I cannot keep doing this
not cause I don't want to but because I can't
the time that we have to spend right now isn't quality time plus it's based off of lies that is uncomfortable and it is wrong
I love you will alweays love you but I cannot keep this up it is destorying me
I am not going to fit in the illusion your creating hon there isn't a place for me
I'm not going to play 2nd fiddle to anyone I'm not going to be a secret
I know that you love me I realize that and I know that you say that as many reason that I have to be togeather you have as many reason why you can't
if those reasons change you have my number you have my email address you have my home address you know where I live
I love you,,,,,,,, but no
If this is what you want this life with me you are going to have to stand up and take it you have to want it enough that you are willing to make it happen WHen I try to get closer to you you feel pressured all I feel is you backing away
Until I do something like this and then you try to grab hold and try to keep me there in your comfort zone
Well honey your comfort zone isn't comfortable for anyone not even you
I sit here all night just wisahing I could call just to hear you to talk to you whenever the need arises but I can't I can't call you on the way to work all we have most of the time is the couple of hours I see you when you are at work and most days you're too busy to talk to me then.
It wasn't supposed to be like this you should've already been here by now but yo're not and I can't help but get the feeling that you may never,,,,,,,,
I wish more than anything that things were different but they're not
and they may never be
Bliss is not based off of hopes dreams and aspiration bliss is based off of the tangible simple pleasures that you can access right now
moments, people, songs, sights, car rides sunsets waterfalls clouds friendships and, if you're one of the lucky ones, love
You are not tangible you're a hope a dream a aspiration
You keep saying "think about you make you the focus"
So be it
When you are ready to take that step you know where I am
and until then
good bye
I don't know any other way of getting through to you other than this this seems to be the only way you really really hear me
I cannot keep doing this
not cause I don't want to but because I can't
the time that we have to spend right now isn't quality time plus it's based off of lies that is uncomfortable and it is wrong
I love you will alweays love you but I cannot keep this up it is destorying me
I am not going to fit in the illusion your creating hon there isn't a place for me
I'm not going to play 2nd fiddle to anyone I'm not going to be a secret
I know that you love me I realize that and I know that you say that as many reason that I have to be togeather you have as many reason why you can't
if those reasons change you have my number you have my email address you have my home address you know where I live
I love you,,,,,,,, but no
If this is what you want this life with me you are going to have to stand up and take it you have to want it enough that you are willing to make it happen WHen I try to get closer to you you feel pressured all I feel is you backing away
Until I do something like this and then you try to grab hold and try to keep me there in your comfort zone
Well honey your comfort zone isn't comfortable for anyone not even you
I sit here all night just wisahing I could call just to hear you to talk to you whenever the need arises but I can't I can't call you on the way to work all we have most of the time is the couple of hours I see you when you are at work and most days you're too busy to talk to me then.
It wasn't supposed to be like this you should've already been here by now but yo're not and I can't help but get the feeling that you may never,,,,,,,,
I wish more than anything that things were different but they're not
and they may never be
Bliss is not based off of hopes dreams and aspiration bliss is based off of the tangible simple pleasures that you can access right now
moments, people, songs, sights, car rides sunsets waterfalls clouds friendships and, if you're one of the lucky ones, love
You are not tangible you're a hope a dream a aspiration
You keep saying "think about you make you the focus"
So be it
When you are ready to take that step you know where I am
and until then
good bye