Baby, you look wonderful tonight...
wow, I haven't checked or written on this in a while. about 2 1/2 weeks to be more specific. I don't even know where to begin. well, here's a start.
It's spring break...finally. I've been spending this time to flush out the bad energy in my life, like I do most breaks from school. I just let things go, I don't dwell on them because they aren't staring me in the face constantly. I calm down, I meditate, I just breathe and enjoy the fact that I still can breathe. I think about the times when I was just content with living each day, just noticing and appreciating small details and beauties in life. I love winter because it lets me remember how much I love when the earth is full of life and new flowers and leaves and everyone's energies are renewed and happy. That's why I can't wait for the weather to change, people will come out of their hibernation, they will hang out again, they will take walks, they will just remember how wonderful seeing a tulip, or an odd-looking cloud, is. I guess what I'm saying is that I just want spring to break. In the weeks leading up to springtime, people are as cranky and grumpy as ever, people lose hope if spring doesn't come fast enough. I just want a gush of wind to come and blow away all the stagnant energy of winter away and people to take notice. I want people to realize that the petty things that make such a huge deal in their lives in the winter, don't really make that big of a difference. I want people to come out of their shells, I want people to just sit outside again. I want people to see the sun shining and think "this is wonderful" as opposed to, "I hate everything" I want people to remember the good times, not the bad times. I want people to think about RIGHT NOW, not a week ago, not 3 weeks from now. I just want people to look around and see that everyone is not out to get you. Everyone is not there to screw you over. Everyone does not hate you or who you are. Everyone is everyone. Everything is everything. Don't worry about pleasing everyone all the time, it's not worth the agony. Please yourself, please the people you love. Make sure you don't take things for granted. Find beauty in the mundane.
wow. I sound like a hippie. that's okay though, cause it's really how I feel. I was looking through my pictures from this summer, and I was thinking about how wonderful all those days were. No one was starting drama, we weren't consistently getting smashed everyday, we didn't NEED to do anything, we just sat outside and did nothing. We talked and we enjoyed the world. I made new friends, and I lost some other ones. We would go to the beach and just take pictures. We would always be taking pictures and hanging out until we had to go home. We'd have fires on the beach, make smores and then get kicked off the beach by cops. I mean, things weren't perfect, but one day we just sat on a hill and looked at the clouds as we just talked. I don't know. I just want to be able to just find somewhere to live over summer, and find a job, and then spend every moment I can with my friends in Kent. What can I say, I'm an idealist.
It's spring break...finally. I've been spending this time to flush out the bad energy in my life, like I do most breaks from school. I just let things go, I don't dwell on them because they aren't staring me in the face constantly. I calm down, I meditate, I just breathe and enjoy the fact that I still can breathe. I think about the times when I was just content with living each day, just noticing and appreciating small details and beauties in life. I love winter because it lets me remember how much I love when the earth is full of life and new flowers and leaves and everyone's energies are renewed and happy. That's why I can't wait for the weather to change, people will come out of their hibernation, they will hang out again, they will take walks, they will just remember how wonderful seeing a tulip, or an odd-looking cloud, is. I guess what I'm saying is that I just want spring to break. In the weeks leading up to springtime, people are as cranky and grumpy as ever, people lose hope if spring doesn't come fast enough. I just want a gush of wind to come and blow away all the stagnant energy of winter away and people to take notice. I want people to realize that the petty things that make such a huge deal in their lives in the winter, don't really make that big of a difference. I want people to come out of their shells, I want people to just sit outside again. I want people to see the sun shining and think "this is wonderful" as opposed to, "I hate everything" I want people to remember the good times, not the bad times. I want people to think about RIGHT NOW, not a week ago, not 3 weeks from now. I just want people to look around and see that everyone is not out to get you. Everyone is not there to screw you over. Everyone does not hate you or who you are. Everyone is everyone. Everything is everything. Don't worry about pleasing everyone all the time, it's not worth the agony. Please yourself, please the people you love. Make sure you don't take things for granted. Find beauty in the mundane.
wow. I sound like a hippie. that's okay though, cause it's really how I feel. I was looking through my pictures from this summer, and I was thinking about how wonderful all those days were. No one was starting drama, we weren't consistently getting smashed everyday, we didn't NEED to do anything, we just sat outside and did nothing. We talked and we enjoyed the world. I made new friends, and I lost some other ones. We would go to the beach and just take pictures. We would always be taking pictures and hanging out until we had to go home. We'd have fires on the beach, make smores and then get kicked off the beach by cops. I mean, things weren't perfect, but one day we just sat on a hill and looked at the clouds as we just talked. I don't know. I just want to be able to just find somewhere to live over summer, and find a job, and then spend every moment I can with my friends in Kent. What can I say, I'm an idealist.