Jul 14, 2007 00:49
I hate my house and I want to move. The situation is making it impossible for me to get work done. i cannot focus, I am constantly stressed out, and I hate being at my house. I want to leave, and tonight. I don't know what to do. I can't just move to some other place because I can't afford to live on my own and if I move into a new house with random people I will have the same problem all over again. I haven't found a place for me and jillian yet, so we can't just pick some place and go. I feel stuck here and I hate it.
I've been repressing a lot of emotions this week and it's starting to wear on me. Sewing is bringing me no joy (in fact, it's bringing me more stress because nothing I'm doing is turning out right). THe more I look at the projects I've been working on the more I hate them. I want to start all over again, but I can't because I've already invested so much time and money in them that I feel like it's no longer worth it. I just want it to be over so I can move on to some other step.
I want space for all my things.
I want to feel like an adult, not like I'm living in a frat house.
I want to take my cat and my sewing machine and get the fuck out of here.