breathe in breathe out
I have not had incoming email for about two days now. Wow, what a difference that makes. I feel so much less stessed. It helps that I haven't been able to find a phone in my house either. It's like a mini vacation. This week has been interesting. I thing I have gone numb! I still have a mountain of work to do, and I have not accomplished much this week due to Halloween and meetings away from home etc.... but I don't feel completely anxious. I think something snapped the other night (Halloween) when I finally decided to lay down and relax, and there was a cop knocking on my door. Apparently the little bonfire/get together I let Eli have with his friends got out of hand across the street. They found a couple empty cases of beer, ditched there, and earlier complaints of teenagers hanging out there, and when chased, ran into my yard, joining the get together. The fact that Eli refused to talk to the officer, and refused a breathalizer test just topped things off. Things just really suck. i think that is where I went numb. What can I do? What can I do about anything? I can do my best and that's all, right? I know things could definitely be worse, and I have no right to complain. I know others are going through much tougher things, and I am really sorry. I hate that I am being self absorbed. Today I am going to try to do some work...tie up some loose ends. I am having dinner with my highschool friends, in our neck of the woods (Iron Hill Brewery..it seems like a cool place). I look forward to that. Also, Joanna is coming into town this weekend. She is showing Chris around Philadelphia, and we are going to try to find a good Thai place in town Saturday evening. Good things! I am going to try to try to relax and enjoy a little bit, and maybe I won't have email for a few more days...well, maybe that will stress me out more. Any way, Carry On.