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Jan 18, 2006 19:06

Sometimes I don't know what to do with myself.

I want to just lean back in this chair and type my life away but for one, I can't see the screen.

Everything in my life is upside down. I pass people in the hallway that I used to tell every single thing too, and now I'm supposed to just look away like I don't know them. I feel as though I know this routine all too well. How am I supposed to know when it's over? When is it okay for me to tell myself that its no longer a fight where we're not talking for a while. When am I supposed to accept the fact that this is how it's going to? It won't be easy, and it probably won't be anytime soon.

My text message talk with Jay last night made me happy cry which is something I haven't done in far too long. He has completely changed my life and I love him for that. He saved me.

I guess I'm gunna go read until 8:30 or so. There's nothing else to do.

I'm so tired all the time.
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