A revelation?
I have a sketch of a rose next to me, on my desk.. and I look at it nightly. It's supposed to be a white rose, but since I toned the entire paper, it's more.. eh.. graphite colored. *smirk* I haven't been inspired to draw much, and I'm under the suspicion it's because I'm not a fan of black-and-white drawings, or the very-defined lines of a sketch. It's fine in a tattoo and all, but.. it just looks so artificial in a drawing, or other piece of art. Painting's where my interest truly lies.. I've only fooled with oil paint (and once, I used stencil cream for an art project.. now that was a god damn pain, and about killed me in the process), but painting is my preferred medium. Such a different approach to defining everything.. much more bold, lively.. everything I love about art. Unfortunately, for those of you have never went out and priced canvas, paints, turpentine, varnish, primer, brushes, palettes.. it's not a cheap hobby or, as I'm hoping, career. Kinda why I need a second job to start paying off what I owe, and support my art.
I have so many ideas for things I wanna draw.. and truly, it's hard to get a good basis for a painting without a good drawing. So hard to get myself to do it, though, when I don't have much interest in line drawings anymore. I think my first project, when I get the money, is to re-do my Peter Steele painting.. every person I know, friend or relative, says they love it, but I know every last mistake that I did in it, and it bothers me.. a lot. For starters.. I used black paint. You don't use black paint, heh. Every space scene you've ever seen in movies and pictures.. and even knowing space is the ultimate void.. it's purple. It's such a dark shade of purple that it looks black, but retains a certain liveliness that a color as drab as black cannot convey. .. And that painting has a lot of black.. and to me, it does look dull. For a first painting, though, I think I did a good job, but after looking at it for 4 years, it's hard to be as happy with it as I used to be. Next time, I'll use a smaller canvas, too. That bitch's like 3 feet long!
Anyway, I should run along to work and dwell longer upon my future aspirations while doing something more productive than.. this.
I have so many ideas for things I wanna draw.. and truly, it's hard to get a good basis for a painting without a good drawing. So hard to get myself to do it, though, when I don't have much interest in line drawings anymore. I think my first project, when I get the money, is to re-do my Peter Steele painting.. every person I know, friend or relative, says they love it, but I know every last mistake that I did in it, and it bothers me.. a lot. For starters.. I used black paint. You don't use black paint, heh. Every space scene you've ever seen in movies and pictures.. and even knowing space is the ultimate void.. it's purple. It's such a dark shade of purple that it looks black, but retains a certain liveliness that a color as drab as black cannot convey. .. And that painting has a lot of black.. and to me, it does look dull. For a first painting, though, I think I did a good job, but after looking at it for 4 years, it's hard to be as happy with it as I used to be. Next time, I'll use a smaller canvas, too. That bitch's like 3 feet long!
Anyway, I should run along to work and dwell longer upon my future aspirations while doing something more productive than.. this.