sometimes life feels too long...
i'd do anything to not be depressed right now...i've definitely never ever felt the way i do lately... part of the reason why i never stay home anymore is cuz when i'm sitting here... alone in my house... i can't get these few small things off my mind...then i pick up my phone and call again... no answer.... do i leave another voice mail? i think i've said just about everything i can... and you have to know that i'm upset right now... i just wanna know why it is you can go weeks without talking to me once... i dont know... i guess it does no good to sit here and cry about it every friggin night... wishin maybe this stupid phone will ring... and your name's on the screen... but it never happens... i want no one... and nothing other then to atleast talk to you... i dont even care if you call me to tell me you found someone else... even if it's just a hi..how's it goin... been real busy lately only have a second... but i just wanta let you know i'm ok and that everything's goin good... it doesn't even matter... i dunno... i prolly just waste my time sitting here typing all this fucking shit on here... no one reads it... what the fuck really... why do i get put through pain like this... the thing that hurts the most is i couldn't let go of what i thought we had ... i can't do it... all i know is i can't take this ...