give it all away...
'this is my december
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear
this is my december
this is my snow covered home
this is my december
this is me alone...'
and i'd give it all away
just to have some where to go to
give it all away...
to have someone to come home too...
this is my december...
these are my snow covered trees...
this is me pretending
this is all i need...'
linkin park...
this is perfect for the way i feel about you... every day of my life i wish i could give it all away and be with you...
on another note.. kind of more upsetting.. and i'm hurt... and ya know i can actually relate to lou now.. i wish he was around to hear this shit.. a little bird came and told me that my ex girlfriend of 3 years.. cheated on me with the dude i always thought she was cheating on me with... slept with him 2 times... i'm not really upset.. i dont really know what i am but i'm contemplating the idea of trust.. and whether or not i can ever use it again...parts of me really wants to call her right now and fuckin let her know what i know.. just to hear her reaction.. would she lie to me and get out of it and tell me the little birdy is a liar .. or would she upright apologize and feel like a total slut... i would hope for the second one... i would hope it would devastate her when i tell her i know.. and that i hate her... the funny thing is... i'll still always be there for her.. whether i like it or not i'd do anything if she needed it cuz that's just how i am... i still feel bad for breaking her heart.. i shouldn't feel that way anymore.. not now.. but i do... i'm really happy to know the things i know now.. to know that my 6th sense was working.. i should of listened to it when it told me she was doing something with this dude but i didn't... i fuckin believed her when i was sitting on her porch bawlin my eyes out.. and she got pissed at me cuz i thought such terrible things.... in my car.. driving around aimlessly.. bawling when i didn't know where she was... and i continued to drive past his house cuz i could swear something was tellin me she was there.. and she was... and i still believed her when she told me she went there just to get away from home and her problems...i wish i could go back now.. and do it all over again.. and make it the way i should of.. a much longer time before all of this happened...
this is my time of the year
this is my december
this is all so clear
this is my december
this is my snow covered home
this is my december
this is me alone...'
and i'd give it all away
just to have some where to go to
give it all away...
to have someone to come home too...
this is my december...
these are my snow covered trees...
this is me pretending
this is all i need...'
linkin park...
this is perfect for the way i feel about you... every day of my life i wish i could give it all away and be with you...
on another note.. kind of more upsetting.. and i'm hurt... and ya know i can actually relate to lou now.. i wish he was around to hear this shit.. a little bird came and told me that my ex girlfriend of 3 years.. cheated on me with the dude i always thought she was cheating on me with... slept with him 2 times... i'm not really upset.. i dont really know what i am but i'm contemplating the idea of trust.. and whether or not i can ever use it again...parts of me really wants to call her right now and fuckin let her know what i know.. just to hear her reaction.. would she lie to me and get out of it and tell me the little birdy is a liar .. or would she upright apologize and feel like a total slut... i would hope for the second one... i would hope it would devastate her when i tell her i know.. and that i hate her... the funny thing is... i'll still always be there for her.. whether i like it or not i'd do anything if she needed it cuz that's just how i am... i still feel bad for breaking her heart.. i shouldn't feel that way anymore.. not now.. but i do... i'm really happy to know the things i know now.. to know that my 6th sense was working.. i should of listened to it when it told me she was doing something with this dude but i didn't... i fuckin believed her when i was sitting on her porch bawlin my eyes out.. and she got pissed at me cuz i thought such terrible things.... in my car.. driving around aimlessly.. bawling when i didn't know where she was... and i continued to drive past his house cuz i could swear something was tellin me she was there.. and she was... and i still believed her when she told me she went there just to get away from home and her problems...i wish i could go back now.. and do it all over again.. and make it the way i should of.. a much longer time before all of this happened...