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I've had this post in my head for a long time now, sort of not quite knowing how to go about it. Then a post on my flist made me realize how long it's been, and that I've been hiding from LJ, so here goes.
I've had the suspicion for a long time that something was wrong. Last week I went to see my doctor, and she told me I had a depression. So yay for me.
I'm okay, mostly, just sort of numb but that's better than when I'm not. But I long to be as full of life as I once was.
How long has this been going on? A couple of months, maybe four.
There's all kinds of shit happening in my life right now, but I'm getting help, and trying to mend and hold on to my friendships, so I guess I'll fight my way back up and out of this, at some point.
Just thought I'd let you know.
And, really, I'll try to be here more. I hate that I know so little of what's going on in your lives. I never stopped caring, you know. I just... couldn't face anything.
*hugs*
I've had the suspicion for a long time that something was wrong. Last week I went to see my doctor, and she told me I had a depression. So yay for me.
I'm okay, mostly, just sort of numb but that's better than when I'm not. But I long to be as full of life as I once was.
How long has this been going on? A couple of months, maybe four.
There's all kinds of shit happening in my life right now, but I'm getting help, and trying to mend and hold on to my friendships, so I guess I'll fight my way back up and out of this, at some point.
Just thought I'd let you know.
And, really, I'll try to be here more. I hate that I know so little of what's going on in your lives. I never stopped caring, you know. I just... couldn't face anything.
*hugs*