Feb 23, 2010 23:57
My self-declaration is here... I was made this way by me, for a reason. I am me just the way that it is, that I am.
I am the Unstoppable Force.
I am detached from my emotions (even though I feel them).
I am a problem solver.
I communicate without shame, embarrassment, or guile.
I am a paramedic.
I am a writer - even though I don't want to publish right now.
I am free falling right now, and I like it.
I am a student - college and of life.
There is nothing that will change who I am on a fundamental level, but there are things that are okay to change for me. The way I handle my life is the way that works for me. There is no one that is allowed to take this away from me. Just because I don't do things the way that some people would like me to, doesn't mean that it's wrong. The way I am is healthy for me. I am functional, efficient, and happy the way that I am. There will never be a time that I am going to be ready to give into emotion without looking at all the options first, because giving into emotion is beyond scary for me. Unless I realize the long term outcome of my actions, I am not comfortable with my actions being as they are. I need to have an educated and analyzed view of where my choices are going to lead me. It's the way that I operate, and it works for me.
This doesn't work for everyone, and some people need to be more in touch with what they feel than me, and that's what works for them. If it works for them, if they're comfortable/functional/efficient - who cares? Let them be! I am that way that way I am. It took some time to get this comfortable with myself. It doesn't matter what works for everyone else, it works for me.
That's another thing - if you want your lover/significant other (etc) to be more _______ (fill in the blank), then you don't want them, not really. If it's an essential part of who they are that you want to change, then you don't want who they really are. It's not worth it if you don't want them, find someone else. Love you, and love someone else for exactly who they are - not who you want them/yourself to be.