(no subject)
Goin' to NY today... it's already 2am and I'm not even remotely tired yet... kinda feel like I won't sleep tonight.
I guess if I don't have everything I need, I can just deal.. it's not like I'm going to some remote island that has no resource and I'll be without access to a store. lol... I don't need to pack my entire closet. I don't need to bring every cd I own and I don't need to bring my entire bathroom either. Just the basics... *sigh* This is going to be fun and a huge learning experience for me. I've never been on a plane by myself before. I hope Jet Blue has good alcohol... I'm gonna need it.
I'll admit, this whole travel process is what terrifies me. I'm totally excited about EVERYother part of this trip... just not the flying part.
It's such a helpless feeling being up there. If something happens, I know there's nothing I can do about it. I'll just have to take a deep breath, and come to some realization that my life is not in my hands and whatever happens will happen regardless of my worrying or not.
If my plane crashes, Tiffany gets to decide who gets what.
Why?
Well... cuz she knows. That's why.
People fly every minute of every day. What makes me think I'm so special that something bad will happen the one time I do? lol...
I know, I'm being paranoid and morbid, but really... remember that post I put up a few months ago about realzing that every moment is vitally important, and how important it is to interact with the people you love as though you'll never get another chance to tell them how you feel, and to live each day as though you won't have another? I try my best to do that, but when you're faced with an event which *could* go wrong and the matter of fact is that you have absolutly no control over whether it will or not...
It brings into a very sharp focus those things you've been letting go to do in that forever-faraway Tomorrow.
There are places I want to go, things I want to do...
There are words that I crave to hear before I die.
If I die tomorrow, I'll have never heard them.
I guess that'll mean that maybe I wasnt' supposed to... y'know, if I do.. but I'm really not planning on dying, so what should I worry about, right? LOL... it's that whole 'I'll be right back' syndrome again...
Oh well.
What will be will be.
And NY is gonna be SO MUCH FUN!! :) So, that's what I'm gonna think about.
Oh, Batman freakin' rocked. You must go see it if you haven't. It's really and truly awesome.
I guess if I don't have everything I need, I can just deal.. it's not like I'm going to some remote island that has no resource and I'll be without access to a store. lol... I don't need to pack my entire closet. I don't need to bring every cd I own and I don't need to bring my entire bathroom either. Just the basics... *sigh* This is going to be fun and a huge learning experience for me. I've never been on a plane by myself before. I hope Jet Blue has good alcohol... I'm gonna need it.
I'll admit, this whole travel process is what terrifies me. I'm totally excited about EVERYother part of this trip... just not the flying part.
It's such a helpless feeling being up there. If something happens, I know there's nothing I can do about it. I'll just have to take a deep breath, and come to some realization that my life is not in my hands and whatever happens will happen regardless of my worrying or not.
If my plane crashes, Tiffany gets to decide who gets what.
Why?
Well... cuz she knows. That's why.
People fly every minute of every day. What makes me think I'm so special that something bad will happen the one time I do? lol...
I know, I'm being paranoid and morbid, but really... remember that post I put up a few months ago about realzing that every moment is vitally important, and how important it is to interact with the people you love as though you'll never get another chance to tell them how you feel, and to live each day as though you won't have another? I try my best to do that, but when you're faced with an event which *could* go wrong and the matter of fact is that you have absolutly no control over whether it will or not...
It brings into a very sharp focus those things you've been letting go to do in that forever-faraway Tomorrow.
There are places I want to go, things I want to do...
There are words that I crave to hear before I die.
If I die tomorrow, I'll have never heard them.
I guess that'll mean that maybe I wasnt' supposed to... y'know, if I do.. but I'm really not planning on dying, so what should I worry about, right? LOL... it's that whole 'I'll be right back' syndrome again...
Oh well.
What will be will be.
And NY is gonna be SO MUCH FUN!! :) So, that's what I'm gonna think about.
Oh, Batman freakin' rocked. You must go see it if you haven't. It's really and truly awesome.