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Oh lord... I just paid all my bills.
It hurts. Ohh... it hurts....
lol...
I still need to pay rent.
.
.
Somehow....
Y'know, this is freakin' crap. I have a good job in a good company, and I still can't make enough to live the way I want to without paying for it a month later. And all I did was go on a vacation. It wasn't like I blew a whole paycheck.. I paid all my bills before I left.. and I was pretty darn careful while I was gone.
*sigh*
Oh well. I'll figure something out. Always do.
If I had a piano, I could teach voice again. But that too, is a whole buncha money I don't have.
Grr.
Just another thing to add to the current frustration....
How long will it take for life to actually feel like it's begun? I feel like a matchbox car that's reved up and ready to run the distance... but I'm stuck against a brick wall. Sometimes i feel like I'm drowning beneath my desire.
Sometimes it's a good pain... a white hot pain that fills me with longing and inspiration. Yet sometimes, like today, it just feels cold. Like the surface is so far away I'll never see the sun again.
It hurts. Ohh... it hurts....
lol...
I still need to pay rent.
.
.
Somehow....
Y'know, this is freakin' crap. I have a good job in a good company, and I still can't make enough to live the way I want to without paying for it a month later. And all I did was go on a vacation. It wasn't like I blew a whole paycheck.. I paid all my bills before I left.. and I was pretty darn careful while I was gone.
*sigh*
Oh well. I'll figure something out. Always do.
If I had a piano, I could teach voice again. But that too, is a whole buncha money I don't have.
Grr.
Just another thing to add to the current frustration....
How long will it take for life to actually feel like it's begun? I feel like a matchbox car that's reved up and ready to run the distance... but I'm stuck against a brick wall. Sometimes i feel like I'm drowning beneath my desire.
Sometimes it's a good pain... a white hot pain that fills me with longing and inspiration. Yet sometimes, like today, it just feels cold. Like the surface is so far away I'll never see the sun again.