the phrase that changed everything
I just got a call transferring me to Las Vegas NV
and I didn't realize it means a sell the house and move to Vegas transfer, I thought he meant instead of working out of Phoenix he'd work out of Vegas. ... He wants to go, he's excited, his daughter's excited. You know I've hollered at God already right? He is a bastard dream taker ;-p
We awere getting on so well again too - like the good ol' days ;) He had some wild hot dream about me and we were talking about making it reality. I actually even phrased some thoughts out in specific words to explain my interest and excitement rather than glossing over as I do. I have known I'd lose him for long times to Thailand, I never dreamed he'd move to another city forever and ever.
And now I have to rise above and laugh and tease and watch as a sign goes up at his house. Listen to him plan and pack and decide what to do w my St Andrew's cross. ...
I wonder what people who believe in God and yet don't like Him a whole lot do when the world comes to an end? Do we go w Him? Grudgingly I guess.
I did learn all the above before the Henry D Thoreau quote came across my path - I would love to believe that it's God saying dream boldly, reach out for something, but I fear God, I fear from all the times that I did reach out and just got my fingers slapped instead. I am too chicken to dream boldly. I fear being boxed and yet I am, tightly, and by my self.
and I didn't realize it means a sell the house and move to Vegas transfer, I thought he meant instead of working out of Phoenix he'd work out of Vegas. ... He wants to go, he's excited, his daughter's excited. You know I've hollered at God already right? He is a bastard dream taker ;-p
We awere getting on so well again too - like the good ol' days ;) He had some wild hot dream about me and we were talking about making it reality. I actually even phrased some thoughts out in specific words to explain my interest and excitement rather than glossing over as I do. I have known I'd lose him for long times to Thailand, I never dreamed he'd move to another city forever and ever.
And now I have to rise above and laugh and tease and watch as a sign goes up at his house. Listen to him plan and pack and decide what to do w my St Andrew's cross. ...
I wonder what people who believe in God and yet don't like Him a whole lot do when the world comes to an end? Do we go w Him? Grudgingly I guess.
I did learn all the above before the Henry D Thoreau quote came across my path - I would love to believe that it's God saying dream boldly, reach out for something, but I fear God, I fear from all the times that I did reach out and just got my fingers slapped instead. I am too chicken to dream boldly. I fear being boxed and yet I am, tightly, and by my self.