I've been thinking...
...No, that is not the smoke you smelled. ;)
Last night I put in a long, crappy, mostly sleepless night. The weather is bitter cold, the heat is running 24/7 nonstop, two humidifers running and the air is still dry. My throat is parched, my mouth is dry and my lips are chapped and I have a sore throat so I'm rather uncomfortable so amidst the restless night I put in, I did some thinking.
It's not like me to get so upset over a television show if an actor decides to move on. Yet, I've been incredibly upset over Michael Weatherly leaving NCIS. I tossed and turned last night on it and I realized that it wasn't so much Michael leaving the show that upset me but how it was announced. David McCallum's interview where it was first 'leaked' felt 'off' to me because he said it had already been announced when that was actually the first we'd heard of it. Though thinking back over this season's episodes, they've been setting it up for him to be on his way out all along. I don't know if that was what David McCallum was referring to or what the deal was but it reeked of deception. Maybe they were trying to pass it off that an older man temporarily lost his marbles and let it slip to avoid some of the vitriol that was generated by Cote de Pablo leaving the show because who is going to get mad at an elderly man? I don't know if that was their motivation but the whole thing reeked of deception and misdirection and I don't like having my intelligence insulted.
Frankly, I'm not sure Michael shouldn't have left years ago. For a team to last that long and for promotions to be turned down is pretty unrealistic. In real life, McGee would've taken the Japan promotion, Tony would've taken the Rota promotion. They would've been idiots not to. Given, this is a TV show and if they'd moved on, the show would have been over but I'm not sure they shouldn't have done that. If they'd kept rotating characters through, maybe have Tim and Tony come back as guest stars occasionally, it would've been better for the show as a whole but now when there are cast changes, it's a really big deal and the fans don't cope well seeing their long-time favorites fade to black. Or maybe they could've set it up to have two teams, Tony's and Gibbs' teams and maybe one week show one team's case, the other show another and have both teams occasionally working together. They probably could've done more with that over a longer period of time.
Of course, all of this is a moot point anyway because they didn't do it that way and now we have a fan favorite moving on and hopefully moving up. I really hope this isn't the last we see of Michael Weatherly. He's an amazing actor and he deserves a chance to shine out of Mark Harmon's shadow. He's too good to be kept in the shadows.
So, I'm starting to get over my sadness over the whole thing as I'm figuring out what has me all out of sorts.
On the upside of life, I find my confidence is growing in other ways as compared to this time last year. My writing is better. My stories are better. I have more personal confidence in myself. I am not bored with my job anymore since being promoted. I've actually never been happier. My boss called me last Friday, wanted to know if I'd be interested in working on another account when I'm not doing QA since my nights are often slow and I said I'd take it on so I'll be learning pathology shortly. I'll work on that when I'm not doing QA and there will be at least one other person helping me with it so that we don't fall behind. That'll be a lot better than editing boring colds and flu notes which comprise most of the notes this time of the year. Sometimes being a medical transcriptionist/editor has its moments.
I've been writing more story-wise lately and in the back of my mind been still thinking a lot about religion/spirituality. No new insights on that front really, at least right now, but things always have to simmer in my mind before I move forward with it. I've been reading the Book of Mormon when I'm not reading the Bible and that's been rather interesting. I'm thinking I need something more interactive to actually be able to understand what I'm reading but I'm also not prepared to get into a religious discussion. That requires a level of trust in another human being I'm not prepared to offer anyone.
I'm suspicious of religious people, have been since I was a teenager. Mostly, I don't want anyone trying to convert me. I'm a grown woman, I can make my own decisions, I don't need anyone telling me what I should think or believe. If it 'feels' right to me, I will run with it. If it doesn't, I don't want to suffer through a conversation that will be a waste of time and breath. I also question the motives of religious people more often than not because I want to know what they have to gain by it. When I was younger, and was 'saved' I felt like the people who recruited me maybe wanted to gain status in their church. I don't know for sure that's what they were doing but my mother sure wondered about it and my mother's instincts about people were seldom wrong. I'll never know what their true motivations were but it was a valuable lesson in not taking people at face value just because they 'seem' like good people. I will never forget that first church I went to. Gossip, backbiting, hypocrites, power plays. Ugh. That church turned me off to ever wanting to go to church again. I think I will some day though, just not ready yet. We'll see though, I haven't ruled it out as a possibility but I'm not exactly keen to rush right out the door either.
Last night I put in a long, crappy, mostly sleepless night. The weather is bitter cold, the heat is running 24/7 nonstop, two humidifers running and the air is still dry. My throat is parched, my mouth is dry and my lips are chapped and I have a sore throat so I'm rather uncomfortable so amidst the restless night I put in, I did some thinking.
It's not like me to get so upset over a television show if an actor decides to move on. Yet, I've been incredibly upset over Michael Weatherly leaving NCIS. I tossed and turned last night on it and I realized that it wasn't so much Michael leaving the show that upset me but how it was announced. David McCallum's interview where it was first 'leaked' felt 'off' to me because he said it had already been announced when that was actually the first we'd heard of it. Though thinking back over this season's episodes, they've been setting it up for him to be on his way out all along. I don't know if that was what David McCallum was referring to or what the deal was but it reeked of deception. Maybe they were trying to pass it off that an older man temporarily lost his marbles and let it slip to avoid some of the vitriol that was generated by Cote de Pablo leaving the show because who is going to get mad at an elderly man? I don't know if that was their motivation but the whole thing reeked of deception and misdirection and I don't like having my intelligence insulted.
Frankly, I'm not sure Michael shouldn't have left years ago. For a team to last that long and for promotions to be turned down is pretty unrealistic. In real life, McGee would've taken the Japan promotion, Tony would've taken the Rota promotion. They would've been idiots not to. Given, this is a TV show and if they'd moved on, the show would have been over but I'm not sure they shouldn't have done that. If they'd kept rotating characters through, maybe have Tim and Tony come back as guest stars occasionally, it would've been better for the show as a whole but now when there are cast changes, it's a really big deal and the fans don't cope well seeing their long-time favorites fade to black. Or maybe they could've set it up to have two teams, Tony's and Gibbs' teams and maybe one week show one team's case, the other show another and have both teams occasionally working together. They probably could've done more with that over a longer period of time.
Of course, all of this is a moot point anyway because they didn't do it that way and now we have a fan favorite moving on and hopefully moving up. I really hope this isn't the last we see of Michael Weatherly. He's an amazing actor and he deserves a chance to shine out of Mark Harmon's shadow. He's too good to be kept in the shadows.
So, I'm starting to get over my sadness over the whole thing as I'm figuring out what has me all out of sorts.
On the upside of life, I find my confidence is growing in other ways as compared to this time last year. My writing is better. My stories are better. I have more personal confidence in myself. I am not bored with my job anymore since being promoted. I've actually never been happier. My boss called me last Friday, wanted to know if I'd be interested in working on another account when I'm not doing QA since my nights are often slow and I said I'd take it on so I'll be learning pathology shortly. I'll work on that when I'm not doing QA and there will be at least one other person helping me with it so that we don't fall behind. That'll be a lot better than editing boring colds and flu notes which comprise most of the notes this time of the year. Sometimes being a medical transcriptionist/editor has its moments.
I've been writing more story-wise lately and in the back of my mind been still thinking a lot about religion/spirituality. No new insights on that front really, at least right now, but things always have to simmer in my mind before I move forward with it. I've been reading the Book of Mormon when I'm not reading the Bible and that's been rather interesting. I'm thinking I need something more interactive to actually be able to understand what I'm reading but I'm also not prepared to get into a religious discussion. That requires a level of trust in another human being I'm not prepared to offer anyone.
I'm suspicious of religious people, have been since I was a teenager. Mostly, I don't want anyone trying to convert me. I'm a grown woman, I can make my own decisions, I don't need anyone telling me what I should think or believe. If it 'feels' right to me, I will run with it. If it doesn't, I don't want to suffer through a conversation that will be a waste of time and breath. I also question the motives of religious people more often than not because I want to know what they have to gain by it. When I was younger, and was 'saved' I felt like the people who recruited me maybe wanted to gain status in their church. I don't know for sure that's what they were doing but my mother sure wondered about it and my mother's instincts about people were seldom wrong. I'll never know what their true motivations were but it was a valuable lesson in not taking people at face value just because they 'seem' like good people. I will never forget that first church I went to. Gossip, backbiting, hypocrites, power plays. Ugh. That church turned me off to ever wanting to go to church again. I think I will some day though, just not ready yet. We'll see though, I haven't ruled it out as a possibility but I'm not exactly keen to rush right out the door either.