The same problem over, and over, and over...
How dose she do it? I can't be me. I just can't. No matter what I say, no matter what I do, she finds fault with me. Weather if it's hanging back when I'm first to a door, and not opening it for her and mom, or getting frustrated with the game when she is winning spectacularly, and loving it. I can't be me. I can't be angry, sad, or frustrated. Ever.
Every time she lays into to me and I strike back she just goes down all the harder. When I ask for forgiveness, she accuses me of trying to make her feel bad. I can't just sit there and take it. It’s like she wants me to go back at her, just the sake of keeping the arguing going. Then when I start to cry, and flee to my room, Mother gets angry at both of us, because "we can't go five min without arguing" then Harmony proceeds to say that it's all my fault. *Sigh* Sometimes I wish I was alone, then maybe I'll learn to know myself well enough to be able to find out what’s wrong with me.
Every time she lays into to me and I strike back she just goes down all the harder. When I ask for forgiveness, she accuses me of trying to make her feel bad. I can't just sit there and take it. It’s like she wants me to go back at her, just the sake of keeping the arguing going. Then when I start to cry, and flee to my room, Mother gets angry at both of us, because "we can't go five min without arguing" then Harmony proceeds to say that it's all my fault. *Sigh* Sometimes I wish I was alone, then maybe I'll learn to know myself well enough to be able to find out what’s wrong with me.