Sleepless again...
The sun will be rising soon and yet I can't seem to sleep. There is something sitting on my shoulders that I can't shake off no matter how hard I try.
It's an amalgamation of guilt and disappointment further burdened by a harsh reality that has forced upon me a major reset. Yet, at the same time... despite me knowing what I know, feeling what I feel, I still can't bring myself to talk about it.
Why? Because like a great many things in life, it could have been avoided so easily if I had been more careful, more aware, and paid more attention to my surroundings, the situation at hand and my priorities rather than just on myself taking things for granted.
It's a great pain... if this feeling of loss was an open wound, I am the saltwater that constantly washes over it. It's an outwordly sting... probably the hardest lesson I've been forced to learn, an experience I've been condemned to swallow.
I just want to turn back time... but that's impossible.
It's an amalgamation of guilt and disappointment further burdened by a harsh reality that has forced upon me a major reset. Yet, at the same time... despite me knowing what I know, feeling what I feel, I still can't bring myself to talk about it.
Why? Because like a great many things in life, it could have been avoided so easily if I had been more careful, more aware, and paid more attention to my surroundings, the situation at hand and my priorities rather than just on myself taking things for granted.
It's a great pain... if this feeling of loss was an open wound, I am the saltwater that constantly washes over it. It's an outwordly sting... probably the hardest lesson I've been forced to learn, an experience I've been condemned to swallow.
I just want to turn back time... but that's impossible.