2009
It's the last day of 2009... I wish I had a lot of great things to say about it. It was another miserable crumb of a year with a sprinkling of the good bits here and there... like well-preserved nuts in a mouldy cookie.
Day by day, I feel as if I'm losing grip on my optimism. Once a constant jar of sunshine, I tend to now be a bag of grey clouds. Even the words need to be cranked out of the mincer these days.
It's not like I have lost the will to live... but more like I've realised that I can not laugh forever. Nor can I hold a smile for very long. Because the world just isn't like that. We all need a reason to smile and laugh... It's just harder for me.
Highlights for 2009 would include the Phoenix Rockfest, which although wasn't a massive gig still managed to include my bestest friends. Then there was the HK-Beijing tour in August which was unlike ANY other trip I have ever taken! Disneyland and Madame Tussaud's did wonders for me there.
I have to consider myself lucky that I haven't had a consistently shitty year albeit still not the best. But I definitely have had worse.
So if you're one of those ppl who have a feeling that 2010 will be better, then congratulations... at least there's somebody who's got faith.
edit:
This just came in my facebook inbox and it instantly brought tears to my eyes, in a good way. Thanks...
It's not just the imagery but also I missed being able to put words together so well anymore... if inspiration was moisture, I am a desert.
Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
W.B. Yeats (1865-1939)
Day by day, I feel as if I'm losing grip on my optimism. Once a constant jar of sunshine, I tend to now be a bag of grey clouds. Even the words need to be cranked out of the mincer these days.
It's not like I have lost the will to live... but more like I've realised that I can not laugh forever. Nor can I hold a smile for very long. Because the world just isn't like that. We all need a reason to smile and laugh... It's just harder for me.
Highlights for 2009 would include the Phoenix Rockfest, which although wasn't a massive gig still managed to include my bestest friends. Then there was the HK-Beijing tour in August which was unlike ANY other trip I have ever taken! Disneyland and Madame Tussaud's did wonders for me there.
I have to consider myself lucky that I haven't had a consistently shitty year albeit still not the best. But I definitely have had worse.
So if you're one of those ppl who have a feeling that 2010 will be better, then congratulations... at least there's somebody who's got faith.
edit:
This just came in my facebook inbox and it instantly brought tears to my eyes, in a good way. Thanks...
It's not just the imagery but also I missed being able to put words together so well anymore... if inspiration was moisture, I am a desert.
Had I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
W.B. Yeats (1865-1939)