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the insensitivity shown.
and the nonchalant attitude displayed.
idfgad anymore.
really, i try really hard to tell myself that.
but freak, i hate myself, i hate my personality that nags at me and makes me harp on these little details.
***
the thought of going back to work on tuesday and being buried by emails spanning all the way back to last tuesday scares me.
can Tuesday never come? please?
i am measuring the impact of leaving after the end of my contract for a private job. sure, i love the job, but i have no love for the CS attitude and way of doing things. and i am afraid that i will be accustomed and even adopt the CS attitude if i stay on further.
***
and this blog seems to be going in the direction of ranting and walloping in self disgust/ angst/ negative feelings.
i need to do sth about it.
i think i'm down with 中二病. :(
***
This is the last time,
RIP grandpa.
Till we meet again, in the future.
and the nonchalant attitude displayed.
idfgad anymore.
really, i try really hard to tell myself that.
but freak, i hate myself, i hate my personality that nags at me and makes me harp on these little details.
***
the thought of going back to work on tuesday and being buried by emails spanning all the way back to last tuesday scares me.
can Tuesday never come? please?
i am measuring the impact of leaving after the end of my contract for a private job. sure, i love the job, but i have no love for the CS attitude and way of doing things. and i am afraid that i will be accustomed and even adopt the CS attitude if i stay on further.
***
and this blog seems to be going in the direction of ranting and walloping in self disgust/ angst/ negative feelings.
i need to do sth about it.
i think i'm down with 中二病. :(
***
This is the last time,
RIP grandpa.
Till we meet again, in the future.