I'm walkin' on Sunshine
There's been a lot of negativity in my posts lately that I'm not entirely proud of. I'd say it's rather unprofessional of me, but perhaps that's why this is a personal and not a professional journal. I've been particularly pensive lately, I've had a lot to think about - 'bout friendships, love, things like that. Remembering that everyone I meet (even if they end up ripping me apart) is met for a reason. Calming myself down, steering me away from hate and back to knowing that getting flustered over it is just not worth the time.
I couldn't move on the first time, but I think - carefully, I can.
On another note, while the Boy and I were making dice bags at my mom's house, I accidentally let the dog loose while showing everyone my happily repaired tooth. I'll get to that part later.
So Jedi went gallivanting all over my old 'territory'. Down through the woods, up into the Sedwick heights, and I chased after him. Met his "girlfriend", too. Riley, btw, is a big sweetie cutie, too. I did manage to grab the big oaf and drag him to my sister's car (thank goodness she came to pick me up), and head back home - but for those moments when I plunged into the woods. The smells, the atmosphere... it was like I was taken back in time. I felt like I was just a kid again, trudging off into the woods and plunging into the skunkweed that lines the little stream banks. I could smell the same familiar smells of the Soulgrounds I grew up with, the same place that had been destroyed what feels like ages ago. I know they've been ravaged and raped, but the scent was still hung on the air. It was magical, and breathtaking, and I just forgot the doldrums of daily life. Just for a few moments, but it was so absolutely worth it.
It makes me totally look forward to next weekend, where with any luck, I'll be revisiting another place of my past. I only pray it too has not fallen.
But, on a less spiritual note, I adore my dentist. That last post about my tooth breakage? Well, turns out I wasn't going to be able to afford it, and really - it was going to have to be pulled as a horrible horrible gaptooth in front. I was devastated. But he managed to make me a resin crown for it. Expensive, yes. I still can't afford it outright, but because he did what he did, I can make payments. And thus, I have a tooth. It gives me a sad sense of pride that I can still smile and not feel apprehensive about it.
And bedtime calls, but I figured I'd give you all a positive update.
Oh, and if anyone even cares about it: My son is eating cereal now, and he's getting so honking big. He's only 4 1/2 months, but the (adorable) PJs he's in are 6-9 month size, WTF. He's getting too big too fast! Gotta sit on him and make him shrink. >X3
Life is so much better when you're not walking on eggshells.
I couldn't move on the first time, but I think - carefully, I can.
On another note, while the Boy and I were making dice bags at my mom's house, I accidentally let the dog loose while showing everyone my happily repaired tooth. I'll get to that part later.
So Jedi went gallivanting all over my old 'territory'. Down through the woods, up into the Sedwick heights, and I chased after him. Met his "girlfriend", too. Riley, btw, is a big sweetie cutie, too. I did manage to grab the big oaf and drag him to my sister's car (thank goodness she came to pick me up), and head back home - but for those moments when I plunged into the woods. The smells, the atmosphere... it was like I was taken back in time. I felt like I was just a kid again, trudging off into the woods and plunging into the skunkweed that lines the little stream banks. I could smell the same familiar smells of the Soulgrounds I grew up with, the same place that had been destroyed what feels like ages ago. I know they've been ravaged and raped, but the scent was still hung on the air. It was magical, and breathtaking, and I just forgot the doldrums of daily life. Just for a few moments, but it was so absolutely worth it.
It makes me totally look forward to next weekend, where with any luck, I'll be revisiting another place of my past. I only pray it too has not fallen.
But, on a less spiritual note, I adore my dentist. That last post about my tooth breakage? Well, turns out I wasn't going to be able to afford it, and really - it was going to have to be pulled as a horrible horrible gaptooth in front. I was devastated. But he managed to make me a resin crown for it. Expensive, yes. I still can't afford it outright, but because he did what he did, I can make payments. And thus, I have a tooth. It gives me a sad sense of pride that I can still smile and not feel apprehensive about it.
And bedtime calls, but I figured I'd give you all a positive update.
Oh, and if anyone even cares about it: My son is eating cereal now, and he's getting so honking big. He's only 4 1/2 months, but the (adorable) PJs he's in are 6-9 month size, WTF. He's getting too big too fast! Gotta sit on him and make him shrink. >X3
Life is so much better when you're not walking on eggshells.