Lets hope this year ends good.

[phoenixfire74]

So over the last year I have changed by leaps and bounds. I feel stronger than I was a year ago, and a hell of a lot stronger than I was two years ago. I don't fall into my pit of despair as much as I used to. I mean, every once in a while I get lonely, but it's not like it used to be where it consumed my ever waking moment and made everyone around me miserable. My kids have become my salvation in a way I guess. Their life is the most important thing to me right now. Which is actually a good thing because two years ago I had a problem with putting other people before them and would lie to myself saying that I had to live my own life. In this last year though, it's occurred to me that my life is not what's important anymore. It's all about them. I mean that's why I became a parent after all. I suppose one could say, I've grown up some.

With that said, lets not kid ourselves here. I have a very deep connection to my inner child, and that connection is what makes me who I am. I love the fact that I can just go do things on a whim every now and then. I love the fact that when I am with my kids I can get down to their level and just have fun, especially when we play video games together. The fact remains though, I have responsibilities that I have to stay on top of.

I had always believed that the year is set by how you spend your time on New Years Eve at midnight. I have learned that it's actually not. It's how you live your life that determines each year. So I am going to keep this in mind as I venture into the new year. I am going to live life to the fullest and enjoy every moment of it.

So to everyone out there, have a happy and safe New Year, and may you all do the same.