love me cancerously
so it's been awhile. these days i'm only online for homework or to quickly check up on things. i turned 21 this month! i went out to dinner and to a bar with lots of people i care about, and had a lot of fun. but it hasn't really changed anything, i was never a big party person.
school is crazy. i have 16 books and multiple articles to read, tests, projects, and 3 term papers of which i have to do tons of research for. sometimes i feel guilty for taking time to sleep at night. like it's being wasteful. i spend all of my free time during the week working on homework so i have most of the weekend to spend on what really matters. even though it may not seem like it, school was never my main priority. i've decided to take next year off, which has relieved some of the stress of applying for grad schools and taking the GRE. not to mention finances. i'm able to cope much more effectively now.
my job sucks. they've cut my hours down to the ridiculous number of 5 per week. luckily i have my parentals to help pay for bills and schooling, because that paycheck barely covers my gas. i have an interview on tuesday.
i'm an officer of the Historian's Guild this year. my dorkiness shows by how excited i get for events. next sunday we're traveling to St. Leo's Abbey because the monks there perform the Gregorian Chant and have masses in latin. then we'll tour the abbey and stop for lunch. i've been lucky enough to make friends with awesome people who share my same silly obsessions.
i hit 2 months with the boyfriend yesterday. i feel like it's actually a healthy, normal relationship for once. even though i have my own issues to deal with that sometimes get in the way, at the end of the day all i want is for him to be here cuddling with me. i think that's the most important thing and the issues will work themselves out.
sometimes i wish i could go back to being that naive, idealistic, overly caring person i know is somewhere buried still.
but regardless of the minor things, i'm very content with where my life is at right now and where i see it going.
all of this time could've been spent on homework! blast!