hmm update..
can't sleep that well latley, myabe if i'll write here it'll make easier on me.
it's realy fucking me up, i can't concetrate at anything. all i have are those stupid thoughts that just won't go away!
it's what they say:" no mind no worries" if you don't have a mind then you don't have thought either so you don't have worries about anything! but i guess it will never be like that, only when i'll be dead or something close to that.
i wish i could find a way to clear my mind out of those thoughts... *sigh*
the more annoying thing is that i want to tell things to people, but i'm afaraid that then they will never talk to me, because sometimes, they realy piss me and make me sad and all i can do is to be apathic about it just let it pass on, but then my mind is all busy about it, and it's so fucked up.
i guess i'm really fucked up then...
i wish someone will invent sucking thoughts machine !!!!!1111111
it's realy fucking me up, i can't concetrate at anything. all i have are those stupid thoughts that just won't go away!
it's what they say:" no mind no worries" if you don't have a mind then you don't have thought either so you don't have worries about anything! but i guess it will never be like that, only when i'll be dead or something close to that.
i wish i could find a way to clear my mind out of those thoughts... *sigh*
the more annoying thing is that i want to tell things to people, but i'm afaraid that then they will never talk to me, because sometimes, they realy piss me and make me sad and all i can do is to be apathic about it just let it pass on, but then my mind is all busy about it, and it's so fucked up.
i guess i'm really fucked up then...
i wish someone will invent sucking thoughts machine !!!!!1111111