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i am so sick of liars... liars piss me off so much. I would much prefer people tell me the truth and have that hurt a bit, than have people lie and i find out later. It makes me sick.
at least i have phaedon here to keep me entertained. he really misses janet, and i think thats really sweet of him. Tomorrow we go to have dinner w/ my family, and that will prove to be interesting... seeing as they will ask who he is, and where paul is... seeing as some of them don't know we broke up. I suppose i was rather stupid about everything. Man... trusting sucks... but at least i wasn't as stupid this time. It will be funny to see everyone's expression when they see phaedon tho. He is gracing them with his presence.
Anyways. Phaedon is being rather ridiculous... he is running around my room dancing to the bloodhound gang, who btw is really vulgar and yeah.... w/e... its amusing to watch.
I'm in a really downer mode right now, and thats rather idiotic of me, and i need to get over myself. I wish that I could snap out of it, but after the conversation i had w/ my mother, i know that my chance for things i want hasn't arrived yet and that to get what i ultimatly want, i will have to wait a long time, probably long after college. It sucks, because all i really want is to be accepted fully by someone... to be open and trusting... to know that everything will be alright. these stupid games everyone plays makes me sick... i'm not a gamer, i'm very straightforward.
Don't play games with me, because you won't like the result... trust me
at least i have phaedon here to keep me entertained. he really misses janet, and i think thats really sweet of him. Tomorrow we go to have dinner w/ my family, and that will prove to be interesting... seeing as they will ask who he is, and where paul is... seeing as some of them don't know we broke up. I suppose i was rather stupid about everything. Man... trusting sucks... but at least i wasn't as stupid this time. It will be funny to see everyone's expression when they see phaedon tho. He is gracing them with his presence.
Anyways. Phaedon is being rather ridiculous... he is running around my room dancing to the bloodhound gang, who btw is really vulgar and yeah.... w/e... its amusing to watch.
I'm in a really downer mode right now, and thats rather idiotic of me, and i need to get over myself. I wish that I could snap out of it, but after the conversation i had w/ my mother, i know that my chance for things i want hasn't arrived yet and that to get what i ultimatly want, i will have to wait a long time, probably long after college. It sucks, because all i really want is to be accepted fully by someone... to be open and trusting... to know that everything will be alright. these stupid games everyone plays makes me sick... i'm not a gamer, i'm very straightforward.
Don't play games with me, because you won't like the result... trust me