tptoy
Well. Loads of shit changed since I was last online, which is hilarious considering I've only been gone for five, six days. Five or six very hot days, five or six lonely days with a dying phone because my phone charger's at home...screaming babies and staying awake at all hours trying to put him to sleep..
I have never seen dark like that night. Monday night. It was so very dark. There were no lights in the streets, no lights inside the house, no air. We were wandering by lanterns and candles and I lay in the dim candlelight that night and finished reading Schindler's List, and lay there wishing I hadn't because rofl I was fucking scared. Of the dark. It was so.dark.
And so anyway.
My favorite tree was ripped down the first night of the storm and there are branches and trees and leaves and brush everywhere in our yard, dents in the car, and the gas and electricity will be off indefinitely because someone ripped out our power lines and the gas leaked out, so basically if some fool lights a smoke in our yard, bam. No more house, because it and everything inside goes up in flames.
And we don't have homeowner's insurance, so we would get nothing at all.
In the meantime once again I've got to go live with Vivian. I hate living with Vivian. It's suffocating and depressing and lonely and surreal there and I don't know when I'll go home if ever because until we can afford more than two thousand dollars, we're shitted for. Which is just great. Just great.
My life, right now, is not very amusing. I'm sure it'll get better eventually but right now I don't like it much, and lol last night I stared so hard at that...thing in my suitcase.
I was choking.
And now...well, who the hell knows what now is? How is this supposed to work anymore? Any of this?
I have to go back to school Monday...
I don't even give a shit about school anymore.
I didn't even realize it was September until last night.
I have never seen dark like that night. Monday night. It was so very dark. There were no lights in the streets, no lights inside the house, no air. We were wandering by lanterns and candles and I lay in the dim candlelight that night and finished reading Schindler's List, and lay there wishing I hadn't because rofl I was fucking scared. Of the dark. It was so.dark.
And so anyway.
My favorite tree was ripped down the first night of the storm and there are branches and trees and leaves and brush everywhere in our yard, dents in the car, and the gas and electricity will be off indefinitely because someone ripped out our power lines and the gas leaked out, so basically if some fool lights a smoke in our yard, bam. No more house, because it and everything inside goes up in flames.
And we don't have homeowner's insurance, so we would get nothing at all.
In the meantime once again I've got to go live with Vivian. I hate living with Vivian. It's suffocating and depressing and lonely and surreal there and I don't know when I'll go home if ever because until we can afford more than two thousand dollars, we're shitted for. Which is just great. Just great.
My life, right now, is not very amusing. I'm sure it'll get better eventually but right now I don't like it much, and lol last night I stared so hard at that...thing in my suitcase.
I was choking.
And now...well, who the hell knows what now is? How is this supposed to work anymore? Any of this?
I have to go back to school Monday...
I don't even give a shit about school anymore.
I didn't even realize it was September until last night.