bah humbug
I missed my blog.
But I still can't write decent entry now. I'm too tired to do that at the moment. I've been working straight since Saturday, and I won't be having my day off until this Saturday.
I don't know if working is worth it, though. I'm working late hours when I really don't even need the money. I just do this to kill some time. I really don't know what's better. To work, starve, and exhaust myself while earning money, or to feed and care for myself but dying of boredom. Right now my body is aching all over from carrying some stuff, soaking in the rain, and standing for more than six hours a day without break. I take in not more than 800 calories a day and my biological clock has once again run awry. My beloved hands are now cracked and decorated with callouses, caused by the surface cleaners, sanitizers, and repeatedly folding up carton boxes. And I couldn't keep my nails long anymore!
I believe what I need right now is to stop, think, and reasses my priorities in life. I don't know if I could continue doing this come January, when I start going back to university.
The thinking has to be postponed until the weekend, though. I think I need my parents' advice on this one.