Anniversary and my Emo Mood
Tomorrow is the anniversary of something very important to me. It was difficult to get to this point but I did it with the help of friends and family. So during this week i have been really reflective. I have come to realize that I was an angry, hurt, sad person. I would hold things inside until they piled up and i would explode which only left devestation. But I have learned and I have grown. I have come to terms and have actually accepted myself as being a gay male. Something I knew I was but hated and rejected myself because I was. See what most people dont understand about me is that for twelve years I was an ordained minister. In the religion I was affiliated with gays were looked as an abomination of man. So when I finally realized I was gay, I hated and loathed myself. But I have learned self acceptance and self love. I am a much happier and more level person now. I now look forward to the future rather then fear what might happpen.
So during this past year I have restarted doing things that I love. Such as writing. I used to write all the time it was a great passion of mine. I recently read somewhere that an artist job is to give back all of the artist talent to the world to make the world a better place. I couldnt agree more. I think I will start to post some of my writings so others can read. Along with this line of topic I was reading a friends lj and he shared an unfinished poem. The poem was incredible. It was touching and shared with others what was going on with him in his heart. This lj friend has actually been a great influence in getting me back to writing. Through reading some of his material it has motivated me to write. So thank you. You know who you are.
I guess thats all I got for now...
So during this past year I have restarted doing things that I love. Such as writing. I used to write all the time it was a great passion of mine. I recently read somewhere that an artist job is to give back all of the artist talent to the world to make the world a better place. I couldnt agree more. I think I will start to post some of my writings so others can read. Along with this line of topic I was reading a friends lj and he shared an unfinished poem. The poem was incredible. It was touching and shared with others what was going on with him in his heart. This lj friend has actually been a great influence in getting me back to writing. Through reading some of his material it has motivated me to write. So thank you. You know who you are.
I guess thats all I got for now...