Changing times
I bumped into one of my old friends outside the rugby ground today, i've known Jane since 1994 when we started working together and we hit it off ( a bit like me and foxygirl at DWP). We were never really close friends but used to go out clubbing together from time to time. Anyway she was really supprised to see me and had thought that i was still down in Cambridge. We had a quick chat and amongst other things she told me that she was now married. This upset me a little bit cos there goes another of my mates who's now married and settled down; no longer available for clubbing and such like.
Between leaving DWP in 2004 and moving back to Warrington in 2006 everything has changed VASTLY!!! Almost all of my friends are either engaged or married, they're no longer available to me. I feel lonely and left out as a result, i'm happy that they're happy but a selfish streak in me wishes that we were all as we were 5-10 years ago. I've been throwing myself into my job since i started it last year and this has kept me distracted, but now i'm starting to reflect more on my personal life and i'm not happy with what i'm finding. It's at times like this that the safety net of Shirley gets quite appealing and going back out with her becomes attractive again. It won't happen this time for sure cos i won't let it. She's part of the cause of my being left behind; i wasted many years in a dead relationship with her while everyone else was getting on and meeting Mr/Mrs right.
I'm facing an uncertain future socially, work leaves me drained in the evenins which means i have neither the energy nor enthusiasm for going out and meeting new people; it's hard enough to do that anyway when you've left your 20's behind, i never thought i'd end up like this.
I dunno perhaps things aren't as bad as i'm making out and i just feel a bit down right now, you never know what's round the corner i suppose.
On a lighter not, i finally got my tax rebate this weekend, a cheque for just over £1000 yippee, so today i treated myself to a new Widnes rugby shirt (which i'm wearing right now) and wore it for todays game against Whitehaven. We just about scraped a lucky win so the shirt has got off to a winning start. We're top of the league with just 6 league games to go and we're looking good for a tilt at promotion. If we don't get promoted then the club itself faces a very uncertain future so it's just as well that we're looking good. I couldn't live without my beloved Widnes Vikings i can forget everying for an hour or two when there's a game on. It's another home game against Doncaster next week and i can't wait already!!!!
Between leaving DWP in 2004 and moving back to Warrington in 2006 everything has changed VASTLY!!! Almost all of my friends are either engaged or married, they're no longer available to me. I feel lonely and left out as a result, i'm happy that they're happy but a selfish streak in me wishes that we were all as we were 5-10 years ago. I've been throwing myself into my job since i started it last year and this has kept me distracted, but now i'm starting to reflect more on my personal life and i'm not happy with what i'm finding. It's at times like this that the safety net of Shirley gets quite appealing and going back out with her becomes attractive again. It won't happen this time for sure cos i won't let it. She's part of the cause of my being left behind; i wasted many years in a dead relationship with her while everyone else was getting on and meeting Mr/Mrs right.
I'm facing an uncertain future socially, work leaves me drained in the evenins which means i have neither the energy nor enthusiasm for going out and meeting new people; it's hard enough to do that anyway when you've left your 20's behind, i never thought i'd end up like this.
I dunno perhaps things aren't as bad as i'm making out and i just feel a bit down right now, you never know what's round the corner i suppose.
On a lighter not, i finally got my tax rebate this weekend, a cheque for just over £1000 yippee, so today i treated myself to a new Widnes rugby shirt (which i'm wearing right now) and wore it for todays game against Whitehaven. We just about scraped a lucky win so the shirt has got off to a winning start. We're top of the league with just 6 league games to go and we're looking good for a tilt at promotion. If we don't get promoted then the club itself faces a very uncertain future so it's just as well that we're looking good. I couldn't live without my beloved Widnes Vikings i can forget everying for an hour or two when there's a game on. It's another home game against Doncaster next week and i can't wait already!!!!