What the hell is wrong with me
I have never in my life felt more alone than I do right now. And it's crazy to feel that way; I have friends who love me, I'm finally living with my dad, I have a boyfriend who occasionally acknowledges my presence. I should be doing okay. But I still cry for him before I go to bed. He still haunts my every thought. And it is so dumb because he probably doesn't give 1/4 of as much thought to me as I do to him but I can't help it. He's the only one who will ever have my heart. Which is why it isn't bothering me as much as it should that Jason seems indifferent to our relationship. I'll never be all in so why should I care if he is right? God I am so fucked up right now.