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on a clear day i can see my forever. on the clear days i'm content to live in the moment and do my thing and enjoy my beautiful town and the smell of the leaves and i'll get where i'm going and everything will be gorgeous. most days are clear for me. i'm a pretty happy camper. then some days the clouds roll in and i have no idea where i'm going anymore. on the not so clear days i feel lost in my own life and all i want in the world is the tiniest notion of certainty that i won't die alone or live in a hole my whole life.
enough of that downer shit, today was a good day. it was a beautiful day and not too cold and the leaves were all in piles and smelled so good i just had to jump in em. and i did. and i talked to that boy i'm in love with. and and and i learned how to oxy-acetylene weld! i bent metal with fire and then pushed molten metal around with more fire. and it was my first time and i'm actually good at it! and my shield looks cool. i love working with metal, its so damn satisfying. and my carving project is sweet. and next week i'll be home for the holidays. so yay! :)
enough of that downer shit, today was a good day. it was a beautiful day and not too cold and the leaves were all in piles and smelled so good i just had to jump in em. and i did. and i talked to that boy i'm in love with. and and and i learned how to oxy-acetylene weld! i bent metal with fire and then pushed molten metal around with more fire. and it was my first time and i'm actually good at it! and my shield looks cool. i love working with metal, its so damn satisfying. and my carving project is sweet. and next week i'll be home for the holidays. so yay! :)