update with my life
i have about a year of nursing school left if i pass all my classes. this quarter has been one roller coaster ride! i just pray that i pass critical care and psych. omg. i don't know what i'd do if i don't.
today's ash wednesday. i'll be giving up meat for lent. ohhh. my! hopefully i lose weight by doing this. LOL. i need to start running again as well..
thought i'd update LJ before i go to sleep. i don't have a fb for 2 weeks til after finals..
ohhh life.. i'm doing okay i guess. my heart almost practically healed from bryan. finally. its about time it's healed. there are days when i still miss all the good times i had but then again i try to outweigh them with the bad times. SO MUCH SHIT i put up with. it is true that loves does make someone blind. Love makes people go gaga. ehhh. i get all lonely being alone most of the time. i wish that i had someone right now to just support me through school and life in general. a person to be there to listen to my vents, a person to say "i love you" a person who would motivate me to do my best! who's there to just sit next to and hug. a person to cuddle with when i'm frustrated. a person who'll be by my side through my days when i'm pmsing. LOL. a person who'd make me smile with funny jokes. a person who i can just just be there to run to. i person to lift me up. =)
why do i fall for guys that don't give a shit about me. haha. joan once told me. "the first mistake is girls blaming themselves." maybe it isn't me that has a problem, its the guys. i can give my all, and just taken get taken for granted or advantage of. karma i guess. i just want to make people happy and if i'm not doing that then whateves. most of the time i don't ask for anything in return. i just do things to just make things easier. but then again, sometimes i wonder when it'll be my turn to just have someone amazing do things for me without asking? ohh well. in time. i'll be happy with the person that loves me for who i am and wouldn't mess with me and take me to his advantage because i'm nice.
there are times that i'd be easier to just be a bitch and careless for people. but idk, its just not me. i get told that i try to put other's happiness over mine, why? idk. i may be self-fish at times, but don't i need to be once in a while? anyways. still staying optimistic that in time i'll be happy! =) i just have to keep my head up. smile along the way....maybe someone can fall in love with it. corny! hahaha. huh.
mmmk. i shouldn't worry too much about having someone. i should focus on me being happy and getting through each day =) live. love. laugh...learn from mistakes, get hurt and just live.
today's ash wednesday. i'll be giving up meat for lent. ohhh. my! hopefully i lose weight by doing this. LOL. i need to start running again as well..
thought i'd update LJ before i go to sleep. i don't have a fb for 2 weeks til after finals..
ohhh life.. i'm doing okay i guess. my heart almost practically healed from bryan. finally. its about time it's healed. there are days when i still miss all the good times i had but then again i try to outweigh them with the bad times. SO MUCH SHIT i put up with. it is true that loves does make someone blind. Love makes people go gaga. ehhh. i get all lonely being alone most of the time. i wish that i had someone right now to just support me through school and life in general. a person to be there to listen to my vents, a person to say "i love you" a person who would motivate me to do my best! who's there to just sit next to and hug. a person to cuddle with when i'm frustrated. a person who'll be by my side through my days when i'm pmsing. LOL. a person who'd make me smile with funny jokes. a person who i can just just be there to run to. i person to lift me up. =)
why do i fall for guys that don't give a shit about me. haha. joan once told me. "the first mistake is girls blaming themselves." maybe it isn't me that has a problem, its the guys. i can give my all, and just taken get taken for granted or advantage of. karma i guess. i just want to make people happy and if i'm not doing that then whateves. most of the time i don't ask for anything in return. i just do things to just make things easier. but then again, sometimes i wonder when it'll be my turn to just have someone amazing do things for me without asking? ohh well. in time. i'll be happy with the person that loves me for who i am and wouldn't mess with me and take me to his advantage because i'm nice.
there are times that i'd be easier to just be a bitch and careless for people. but idk, its just not me. i get told that i try to put other's happiness over mine, why? idk. i may be self-fish at times, but don't i need to be once in a while? anyways. still staying optimistic that in time i'll be happy! =) i just have to keep my head up. smile along the way....maybe someone can fall in love with it. corny! hahaha. huh.
mmmk. i shouldn't worry too much about having someone. i should focus on me being happy and getting through each day =) live. love. laugh...learn from mistakes, get hurt and just live.