sadness
this morning tammy wakes me up crying asking me to drive her to the store b/c she needed something to drink..I told her i couldnt b/c i was still like asleep and didnt trust myself told her to go drink the orange juice..Then i asked what was wrong and i found out that my great grandma passed away this morning..We all knew it was coming but the thing that bothers me the most is..why cant i cry about it? I mean i love her a lot she was the only grand parent who actually loved us for the way we are and didnt try to change us..(referring to my grandmother) it really sucks...i was like wtf..why isnt it hitting me like it does everyone else..i remember when my granny jones died and i didnt even know her but yet i cried for hours...but now my Great grandma dies who i used to spend a lot of time with and i dont cry a single tear...