Make it Happen
Sitting here all alone in my room trying to stay warm on this wet and cold January night, I wonder where this year will take me. As so many people work on their New Year's resolutions, I ponder as to what mine exactly are. I have already lost over 40 lbs from Weight Watchers, and am extremely happy about that... so I suppose one resolution could be to continue on my healthy life style, and remain OP. I have made so many friends this year from the Weight Watcher Boards. There are so many people willing to motivate and help me along my journey, and I am so greatful. Allison Jean has been my greatest inspiration! I can only hope that I will have the determination, motivation, and drive to accomplish all that she has.
Another aspect of my life I would like to improve is my love life... which is currently on hold. I told myself while I'm on my weight loss journey, I want to be selfish and concentrate on myself, without any stupid guys getting in the way.
However, at times I often wonder if a relationship would be beneficial. I definately miss loving someone and being with that person. But who would I be with, even if I did decide I was waiting for a relationship? Most of my guy friends are in relationships, and I'm not one to go to a bar to pick up a random guy. I've been talking to Joe and Paris more lately. Both are friends whom I have dated in the past. Joe, however, is on the Cape, and Paris I think is too much of a lady's man... I don't know if I could trust in a relationship. Then there is Chad who tells me that I am the one who got away... but he is now in a committed relationship, which I would never break up! Then I think about Jason P, who is my true love and the one who got away... Although I know that will never be... once you give a piece of your heart to someone, you can never really get it back. Then there is a guy who I've been friends with for over a year and a half. It's wierd going from every day talking to him, to hardly speaking now because he has a girlfriend. I am extremely happy for him, but it just once again reminds me that I am the only one single. I just need to make myself more available to meet guys... so that will be my next resolution... to be more active in the dating world by getting out and meeting more people.
I'd also like to make new friends. Esp at this point of my life... I really need all the support and love I can get. I am sick of being afraid and shy and lonely. I want to be more outgoing and I want REAL friends. Friends who will motivate me, stand by me, and make me happy! I hope to finally be able to meet some of these people from the WW boards. They have really inspired me, and I would really like to become real friends with some of them. I have a really good feeling about this year. I feel like something is going to happen that will totally change my life. I feel a vibe that I cannot explain. It is funny, but it's almost like I feel like I am going to meet my best friend this year. I hope this means I am going to have an amazing year.
Ok, so my conclusion of the night:
1. I will continue on my healthy life style losing more weight, exercising more, gaining more self confidence, and looking good.
2. I will improve my chance for love by making new friends, being more active in the dating world, and opening my eyes to what's out there.
3. I will increase my support system and confidence by making new REAL friends!
Another aspect of my life I would like to improve is my love life... which is currently on hold. I told myself while I'm on my weight loss journey, I want to be selfish and concentrate on myself, without any stupid guys getting in the way.
However, at times I often wonder if a relationship would be beneficial. I definately miss loving someone and being with that person. But who would I be with, even if I did decide I was waiting for a relationship? Most of my guy friends are in relationships, and I'm not one to go to a bar to pick up a random guy. I've been talking to Joe and Paris more lately. Both are friends whom I have dated in the past. Joe, however, is on the Cape, and Paris I think is too much of a lady's man... I don't know if I could trust in a relationship. Then there is Chad who tells me that I am the one who got away... but he is now in a committed relationship, which I would never break up! Then I think about Jason P, who is my true love and the one who got away... Although I know that will never be... once you give a piece of your heart to someone, you can never really get it back. Then there is a guy who I've been friends with for over a year and a half. It's wierd going from every day talking to him, to hardly speaking now because he has a girlfriend. I am extremely happy for him, but it just once again reminds me that I am the only one single. I just need to make myself more available to meet guys... so that will be my next resolution... to be more active in the dating world by getting out and meeting more people.
I'd also like to make new friends. Esp at this point of my life... I really need all the support and love I can get. I am sick of being afraid and shy and lonely. I want to be more outgoing and I want REAL friends. Friends who will motivate me, stand by me, and make me happy! I hope to finally be able to meet some of these people from the WW boards. They have really inspired me, and I would really like to become real friends with some of them. I have a really good feeling about this year. I feel like something is going to happen that will totally change my life. I feel a vibe that I cannot explain. It is funny, but it's almost like I feel like I am going to meet my best friend this year. I hope this means I am going to have an amazing year.
Ok, so my conclusion of the night:
1. I will continue on my healthy life style losing more weight, exercising more, gaining more self confidence, and looking good.
2. I will improve my chance for love by making new friends, being more active in the dating world, and opening my eyes to what's out there.
3. I will increase my support system and confidence by making new REAL friends!