ahhhhh so long
well its been, who really knows how long since i've written in here. basically, im just writing a bit to get stuff off my chest, and well honestly, to see if anyone notices that i posted.
lets see...school is awesome and overwhelming, jewelry and metal design is going well, truely my only calling in life, unless one day i'm called to be a mother, which would A. suprise me and B. would be so far in the future it'll be like a different life, worthy of that different calling. i might have lost my train of thought here...
so i an just wondering about what i really want. i mean, i've always wanted so much for myself, and lately i've watched myself sacrifice that for rediculous reasons, i just want no regrets. sure thats selfish, but damnit i'm american.
im kinda playing with the idea of gradschool behind my parents back, they said no, but if i pay for it myself, i dont see their problem, and it would be neat to go somewhere like rhode island, or california...i wonder if i'd make it, or get scared and go home? i talk big, but we all know who i really am...
thats all for now. nothing earth-shattering or thrilling, but you know, i'm makin it...
what about you...?
lets see...school is awesome and overwhelming, jewelry and metal design is going well, truely my only calling in life, unless one day i'm called to be a mother, which would A. suprise me and B. would be so far in the future it'll be like a different life, worthy of that different calling. i might have lost my train of thought here...
so i an just wondering about what i really want. i mean, i've always wanted so much for myself, and lately i've watched myself sacrifice that for rediculous reasons, i just want no regrets. sure thats selfish, but damnit i'm american.
im kinda playing with the idea of gradschool behind my parents back, they said no, but if i pay for it myself, i dont see their problem, and it would be neat to go somewhere like rhode island, or california...i wonder if i'd make it, or get scared and go home? i talk big, but we all know who i really am...
thats all for now. nothing earth-shattering or thrilling, but you know, i'm makin it...
what about you...?