it's that time of year...leave all our hopelessnesses aside
i feel like an old woman.
most of the time...
i don't like spending money,
or getting drunk,
or socializing,
(especially in dark, loud, smokey, crowded places),
or going out past my bedtime,
(which gets progressively earlier),
or even going out to eat!
(because i've deemed most resteraunts not healthy enough or too expensive)
ha!
and so i never see my friends!
or some of them, at least.
so i don't know what to do about that.
sorry?
but i am not sorry, really. because i am happy with my decisions (most of the time) but i still feel guilty,
because people think you are lame
when you stop going out
and stop going to shows as often as you used to...
they take it personally.
but maybe sometimes it's okay to shift gears a little bit.
you know?
and this is not an attack on anyone else's lifestyle!
i like doing all those things,
just not as often.
mostly never.
haha!
oh geeze.
anyway,
last night i flaked out, i am sorry. i really did want to go. but i'm not used to started my night at midnight anymore. so i was really tired. and i knew i wouldn't have been much fun at that point.
what a bummer.
on the flip side,
i painted last night.
whales.
they are so pretty.
so that is good.
and i helped my sister with her homework.
that is good too.
and i actually got an o.k. amount of sleep and so today work is not all that bad.
anyway, there is a show tonight at t.s.i.
it will be awesome.
and i will go,
no matter what.
so maybe i will see you there,
fellow livejournal users.
gooday.
most of the time...
i don't like spending money,
or getting drunk,
or socializing,
(especially in dark, loud, smokey, crowded places),
or going out past my bedtime,
(which gets progressively earlier),
or even going out to eat!
(because i've deemed most resteraunts not healthy enough or too expensive)
ha!
and so i never see my friends!
or some of them, at least.
so i don't know what to do about that.
sorry?
but i am not sorry, really. because i am happy with my decisions (most of the time) but i still feel guilty,
because people think you are lame
when you stop going out
and stop going to shows as often as you used to...
they take it personally.
but maybe sometimes it's okay to shift gears a little bit.
you know?
and this is not an attack on anyone else's lifestyle!
i like doing all those things,
just not as often.
mostly never.
haha!
oh geeze.
anyway,
last night i flaked out, i am sorry. i really did want to go. but i'm not used to started my night at midnight anymore. so i was really tired. and i knew i wouldn't have been much fun at that point.
what a bummer.
on the flip side,
i painted last night.
whales.
they are so pretty.
so that is good.
and i helped my sister with her homework.
that is good too.
and i actually got an o.k. amount of sleep and so today work is not all that bad.
anyway, there is a show tonight at t.s.i.
it will be awesome.
and i will go,
no matter what.
so maybe i will see you there,
fellow livejournal users.
gooday.