Also.
Hi.
I know we've lost touch lately. I'm feeling more reclusive than usual. Well, ya know, not more than usual for winter, but, yeah, that's the thing really. It's hibernation time. I'm curling in and keeping quiet.
Life's... well, it depends on who you ask. Someone said to me lately that things seem to be going better for me, like I'm getting stuff done. I know J would tell you the same thing. Funny thing, though, is that I don't feel that way. Yes, I can look at what progress has been made and acknowledge it. No, I don't feel it's even remotely substantial when compared to how much there is yet to do and how unwilling I seem to be to do it. Big things are going slowly better, yes, but what about all the little things I've let fall to the wayside? What about the big issues that we're all just happily ignoring?
Sure, some things are better, but there's a lot left to do. I guess I get hung up on that way too easily. And beating myself up over the fact that I'm not doing what I need to be doing does not inspire me to actually do any of it. Quite the opposite, really. I'd mention how old habits die hard, but that'd just be the old excuse-making habit I've been trying to kick.
So yeah, things are going well. Mostly. Depending on your scale. Compared to how they were this time last year. Or earlier this year. I need my qualifiers.
I need a few other things as well.
Ah well.
I know we've lost touch lately. I'm feeling more reclusive than usual. Well, ya know, not more than usual for winter, but, yeah, that's the thing really. It's hibernation time. I'm curling in and keeping quiet.
Life's... well, it depends on who you ask. Someone said to me lately that things seem to be going better for me, like I'm getting stuff done. I know J would tell you the same thing. Funny thing, though, is that I don't feel that way. Yes, I can look at what progress has been made and acknowledge it. No, I don't feel it's even remotely substantial when compared to how much there is yet to do and how unwilling I seem to be to do it. Big things are going slowly better, yes, but what about all the little things I've let fall to the wayside? What about the big issues that we're all just happily ignoring?
Sure, some things are better, but there's a lot left to do. I guess I get hung up on that way too easily. And beating myself up over the fact that I'm not doing what I need to be doing does not inspire me to actually do any of it. Quite the opposite, really. I'd mention how old habits die hard, but that'd just be the old excuse-making habit I've been trying to kick.
So yeah, things are going well. Mostly. Depending on your scale. Compared to how they were this time last year. Or earlier this year. I need my qualifiers.
I need a few other things as well.
Ah well.