[FanFic] Odi Et Amo: “Straightjacket Feeling”
About Odi et Amo:
Odi et Amo seems to have this canon timeline of flashbacks and mainly focuses on the modern lives of Arthur Kirkland and Francis Bonnefoy, not as nations, but as regular people. But well of course, still as nation but you get my point. Odi et Amo literally means "Love and Hate" which simply summarizes the relationship of these two. There is not canon storyline because this is a compilation of a series of events.
A/N: After a long haitus I managed to write a drabble-like thing. This is dedicated to my friend and a fan (?) who had asked for this since last summer, sleepysorrows
Odi et Amo: “Straightjacket Feeling”
From England to France
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It had always been painful.
It had always been.
Why would it not?
Who wouldn’t hurt to watch the person you actually love be with someone who isn’t you? Funny though, that you’ve always been the one leaving subtle messages from time to time. Then again, don’t you ever wonder if that person ever realizes it?
Sometimes I wonder... sometimes I truly wonder whenever he sees me with someone else, does he even feel that twinge of jealousy that I also feel when I see him in the same manner?
No one really knows but from those little bickers, I hold on to them quite dearly, Makes thinsg quite easier to let go don’t you think?
In my mind, sometimes I would beg that you would at least stop looking at me and just pretend for once that I do not even exist. The more I look at you, the more that painful grip intensifies. Ever wonder why I would from time to time ask to be excused from meetings?
If I can just tell you without making myself a total ass, I would admit that sometimes I would utterly wish that everyone was no out to get either my attention or balls as most of they would point out.
...Sometimes it would wish that I could even manage to say that without making myself look like a total crackpot on April Fools.
...Are we destined to be like this forever?
...To lie and pretend?
If so, then I wish I never even met you. Because it would have been better that way.
Odi et Amo seems to have this canon timeline of flashbacks and mainly focuses on the modern lives of Arthur Kirkland and Francis Bonnefoy, not as nations, but as regular people. But well of course, still as nation but you get my point. Odi et Amo literally means "Love and Hate" which simply summarizes the relationship of these two. There is not canon storyline because this is a compilation of a series of events.
A/N: After a long haitus I managed to write a drabble-like thing. This is dedicated to my friend and a fan (?) who had asked for this since last summer, sleepysorrows
Odi et Amo: “Straightjacket Feeling”
From England to France
---
It had always been painful.
It had always been.
Why would it not?
Who wouldn’t hurt to watch the person you actually love be with someone who isn’t you? Funny though, that you’ve always been the one leaving subtle messages from time to time. Then again, don’t you ever wonder if that person ever realizes it?
Sometimes I wonder... sometimes I truly wonder whenever he sees me with someone else, does he even feel that twinge of jealousy that I also feel when I see him in the same manner?
No one really knows but from those little bickers, I hold on to them quite dearly, Makes thinsg quite easier to let go don’t you think?
In my mind, sometimes I would beg that you would at least stop looking at me and just pretend for once that I do not even exist. The more I look at you, the more that painful grip intensifies. Ever wonder why I would from time to time ask to be excused from meetings?
If I can just tell you without making myself a total ass, I would admit that sometimes I would utterly wish that everyone was no out to get either my attention or balls as most of they would point out.
...Sometimes it would wish that I could even manage to say that without making myself look like a total crackpot on April Fools.
...Are we destined to be like this forever?
...To lie and pretend?
If so, then I wish I never even met you. Because it would have been better that way.