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havent updates in a while... its basicaly the same old same old and old visions i saw of the future are definately coming true. People are exactly who i thought they were, the good hearted and the bad. This makes me really happy for some, and really dissapointed in others. I watch as some of my friends sit around and smoke their lives away, literally, and others talk behind my back while stil pretending to be a friends to my face (well jsut one really) and then i see others who have finally become the person i always knew they would. The best part is, is that i am totally ok with all of this. Sure i will miss the friends that i am leaving behind, but its time to move on, and i am just now realizing i am ready for it.
I am REALLY excited to go to CMU. I want to start looking for apartments for next year, i know i need to get that done. I filled out my application last night. Hope i get in (HAH!). I just found out that because i have good grades i get 3000 to spend on my tuition. THats almost as much money as i got coming out of high school. So i'm really happy about that. Who knows, maybe i might get some other scholarships too, that would be nice.
I've been wanting to volunteer lately. If anyone knows of anything that is of worthy cause, let me know. I want to stop doing things that dont revolve around me as much, and keep trying to make things better around me, not for me. Comment if you know of anything.
School is going good, even though i think i did terrible on the two tests i took yesterday, i have an A and an A- in those classes so it shouldnt hurt my grades too much, and all i have to do is not totally screw up and lose my scholarship and i will be fine. But as long as i dont slack off a lot i will be ok.
Going back like 2 months i still am attracted to girl #2. Girl #1 and previous Girl #1 are basically out of my life. And i think that is for the better. THe lack of commuinication was killing me, so it had to be done. It's too bad though, because i really think with both instances, it could have spawned into a really good relationship, whether it was a friendship or whatever, just good times.
Met a guy at CMU named jay about 3 weeks back. Him and his roomate dave are two really awesome guys. It's been a lot of fun partying with them. They seem to "get" me a lot more then most of my other friends did, minus steve, i think he gets me fairly well. They are both just good hearted guys. What makes it even better is that they both are rewarded for being who they are. It makes me believe that "nice guys finish last" isnt always true. I'm not saying it never happens, but it gives me hope to see that people can actually be nice and likable.
I want to stop drinking so much. I dont think its the "so much" part, i think its more of the "as much". I only drink maybe 3 or 4 times a month, but when i do i seem to be going overboard. The last few times i went out it seems like someones gotten sick (including me, steve, bobby, and paul). Dont get me wrong it seems like everyone had a lot of fun, even when we did get sick, and we wouldnt do it any differently if we could do it over again, but i think we could have just as much fun taking it a little slower.
Randomness: I've been to two parties at CMU that werent affiliated with party Chris (actually 3), and i've seen this same hot girl at them that gave me her number. Why is it that i dont have the confidence to just be comfortable around her? I know she at least has interest in me, i mean she gave me her number, but still... i dont understand it. I'm workign on it, but i feel like i have been working on it for like 85237 years now.
I want a meaningful relationship with a girl.... havent had one of those in a LONG time now.
I am REALLY excited to go to CMU. I want to start looking for apartments for next year, i know i need to get that done. I filled out my application last night. Hope i get in (HAH!). I just found out that because i have good grades i get 3000 to spend on my tuition. THats almost as much money as i got coming out of high school. So i'm really happy about that. Who knows, maybe i might get some other scholarships too, that would be nice.
I've been wanting to volunteer lately. If anyone knows of anything that is of worthy cause, let me know. I want to stop doing things that dont revolve around me as much, and keep trying to make things better around me, not for me. Comment if you know of anything.
School is going good, even though i think i did terrible on the two tests i took yesterday, i have an A and an A- in those classes so it shouldnt hurt my grades too much, and all i have to do is not totally screw up and lose my scholarship and i will be fine. But as long as i dont slack off a lot i will be ok.
Going back like 2 months i still am attracted to girl #2. Girl #1 and previous Girl #1 are basically out of my life. And i think that is for the better. THe lack of commuinication was killing me, so it had to be done. It's too bad though, because i really think with both instances, it could have spawned into a really good relationship, whether it was a friendship or whatever, just good times.
Met a guy at CMU named jay about 3 weeks back. Him and his roomate dave are two really awesome guys. It's been a lot of fun partying with them. They seem to "get" me a lot more then most of my other friends did, minus steve, i think he gets me fairly well. They are both just good hearted guys. What makes it even better is that they both are rewarded for being who they are. It makes me believe that "nice guys finish last" isnt always true. I'm not saying it never happens, but it gives me hope to see that people can actually be nice and likable.
I want to stop drinking so much. I dont think its the "so much" part, i think its more of the "as much". I only drink maybe 3 or 4 times a month, but when i do i seem to be going overboard. The last few times i went out it seems like someones gotten sick (including me, steve, bobby, and paul). Dont get me wrong it seems like everyone had a lot of fun, even when we did get sick, and we wouldnt do it any differently if we could do it over again, but i think we could have just as much fun taking it a little slower.
Randomness: I've been to two parties at CMU that werent affiliated with party Chris (actually 3), and i've seen this same hot girl at them that gave me her number. Why is it that i dont have the confidence to just be comfortable around her? I know she at least has interest in me, i mean she gave me her number, but still... i dont understand it. I'm workign on it, but i feel like i have been working on it for like 85237 years now.
I want a meaningful relationship with a girl.... havent had one of those in a LONG time now.