i'm babbling. it's something i do when i'm worried.
Today it is midwinter break. (parenthetical note the first: i cannot type 'midwinter' any more without an effort; my fingers want to type mydwynter.)
The child is home from school.
We need cat food.
Chris is on a deadline and as such will not be home until late.
All of this adds up to 'it is time to test an outing with the little one, the wheelchair, and me.'
i hope this works.
(parenthetical note the second: fortunately the pet food store is close enough for me to walk with him and bring food home in a backpack should we have some difficulties. so the cats will not starve, nor will they eat me for not providing food.)
I'm kind of nervous. mostly because of the elevator. i know there is room for both of us in it. i just am not sure how to direct him properly and steer the wheelchair in at the same time. but i will figure it out somehow, because i have to.
If this works we will have more freedom to go to the park, to the library, etc etc.
I want to make this work.
I'm still nervous.
(footnote: this is not much of an adventure by global standards. but i'm worried about it. it's kind of boring. i feel the need to apologise for some reason. my free-floating anxiety is ramping up these past few days and i'm not sure why. carry on.)
(son of footnote: i have a semi-new kid-icon. it's one of three that are actual pictures from my life. i find it interesting that i'm very much ME in this LJ but there are only three frequently used pictures from my life in it. maybe it's because i'm something of an escapist by nature. or maybe it's because I'd rather see a picture of RSL than a picture of me, because i don't see myself as visually interesting most of the time. something to think about.)
(redheaded stepchild of footnote: i have many random pendants; i wear one most days, and usually they're chosen at random. I wore my wise mama (somewhat not worksafe: it's art, but it has boobs) pendant today, whick i try to wear when i'm doing important kid-things - it's kind of a talisman/reminder that it's okay to have/be this part of my life (and it has a tree of knowledge on the back.) i randomly picked that up today. maybe it'll help.)
The child is home from school.
We need cat food.
Chris is on a deadline and as such will not be home until late.
All of this adds up to 'it is time to test an outing with the little one, the wheelchair, and me.'
i hope this works.
(parenthetical note the second: fortunately the pet food store is close enough for me to walk with him and bring food home in a backpack should we have some difficulties. so the cats will not starve, nor will they eat me for not providing food.)
I'm kind of nervous. mostly because of the elevator. i know there is room for both of us in it. i just am not sure how to direct him properly and steer the wheelchair in at the same time. but i will figure it out somehow, because i have to.
If this works we will have more freedom to go to the park, to the library, etc etc.
I want to make this work.
I'm still nervous.
(footnote: this is not much of an adventure by global standards. but i'm worried about it. it's kind of boring. i feel the need to apologise for some reason. my free-floating anxiety is ramping up these past few days and i'm not sure why. carry on.)
(son of footnote: i have a semi-new kid-icon. it's one of three that are actual pictures from my life. i find it interesting that i'm very much ME in this LJ but there are only three frequently used pictures from my life in it. maybe it's because i'm something of an escapist by nature. or maybe it's because I'd rather see a picture of RSL than a picture of me, because i don't see myself as visually interesting most of the time. something to think about.)
(redheaded stepchild of footnote: i have many random pendants; i wear one most days, and usually they're chosen at random. I wore my wise mama (somewhat not worksafe: it's art, but it has boobs) pendant today, whick i try to wear when i'm doing important kid-things - it's kind of a talisman/reminder that it's okay to have/be this part of my life (and it has a tree of knowledge on the back.) i randomly picked that up today. maybe it'll help.)