Another night of Insomnia
After several questions about my journal, I've amended my last entry. I'm just going to write about fairly neutral stuff, and keep it light. :)
So I'm up again for another all-nighter this week. Sleeping in on Saturday will be such a welcome blessing. I've got to get up (or stay up, rather) for registration tomorrow at 8. I will hopefully end up with a much less demanding course-load next semester. Pray for me on that one! I've also got a test and a presentation tomorrow. Let's hope I do better on this test than I did on the last one--but at least I'm studying for this one! (accidently crashed before the other one.) I feel really prepared for my presentation though. I haven't been so great at public speaking this semester, so let's hope I regain my old skill at it and rock this presentation. Its on a kind of strange topic: male prostitution. But nonetheless, I'm ready for it. Yay!
I've loved seeing more of Mom lately. I've really missed hanging out with her. Feels great to call her up and just chat...besides being an awesome mom, she's an amazing friend too. Go Mom! :) Mom's always been my hero, giving me someone to look up to. I know I'll never be half as strong, dedicated or intellegent as she is, but its a benchmark I can always strive for. I'm always trying to find her in me, the goodness, the strength, the perserverance. Being a strong woman hopefully runs in the family! Mindy's due any day now, getting big. I can't wait to welcome my niece into the world--and to be an aunt. And in January, I get another gift: a nephew! Its like Christmas three times in six months! Still kinda strange to have my youngest siblings having babies, but they've both worked really hard to be good parents, preparing for the babies, getting their lives together. If for no other reason than that, these babies have been tremendous blessings--besides that they're our true gifts from God! :) I just hope I can be a good aunt...babysitting and helping to take care of them. I've not been so great at being nurturing lately, so hopefully I'll be able to rise to the occassion. At least by the time both babies are here, my classes won't take up so much time and I can really help out. Plus, I'll get to show them off to all my friends, they're gonna be good-looking kids you know. Runs in the family! hehehe :)
I have to say, I love my roomies. They really are amazing ladies. And I mean ladies in the true, old-fashioned sense of the word. They both have such grace, poise, and kindness. In the past month, they've really reminded me a lot about what it means to be a feminist. Now, I know, you're thinking, "where the heck did feminism come in to that equation??" Let me explain. Its more than the macro level of supporting women's rights and equality, and the rights of other oppressed groups (visit www.now.org for more info). But on the micro level too, being a strong supportive woman that other women can lean on, look up to, and feel support by. My roommates have done just that...not only for me but for others too. They impress me alot, and mostly when they think I don't notice. But I do, and I thank them for it.
So after all that rambling, I guess what I'm feeling is hope. And faith...feels like God is reaching out to me, and I'm reaching back. I've really missed Him.
PS I don't know who my mystery post-er is, but your support, especially through Him, has been like a light in a dark, scary storm. Knowing that another Christian is supporting me without identifying themselves really has really shown me a lot. I'm more grateful than you'll ever know. God bless!
PPS I miss you Shawn!! Hope you read this! I'm sorry I've been a crappy friend lately, but hopefully you know I love ya!
So I'm up again for another all-nighter this week. Sleeping in on Saturday will be such a welcome blessing. I've got to get up (or stay up, rather) for registration tomorrow at 8. I will hopefully end up with a much less demanding course-load next semester. Pray for me on that one! I've also got a test and a presentation tomorrow. Let's hope I do better on this test than I did on the last one--but at least I'm studying for this one! (accidently crashed before the other one.) I feel really prepared for my presentation though. I haven't been so great at public speaking this semester, so let's hope I regain my old skill at it and rock this presentation. Its on a kind of strange topic: male prostitution. But nonetheless, I'm ready for it. Yay!
I've loved seeing more of Mom lately. I've really missed hanging out with her. Feels great to call her up and just chat...besides being an awesome mom, she's an amazing friend too. Go Mom! :) Mom's always been my hero, giving me someone to look up to. I know I'll never be half as strong, dedicated or intellegent as she is, but its a benchmark I can always strive for. I'm always trying to find her in me, the goodness, the strength, the perserverance. Being a strong woman hopefully runs in the family! Mindy's due any day now, getting big. I can't wait to welcome my niece into the world--and to be an aunt. And in January, I get another gift: a nephew! Its like Christmas three times in six months! Still kinda strange to have my youngest siblings having babies, but they've both worked really hard to be good parents, preparing for the babies, getting their lives together. If for no other reason than that, these babies have been tremendous blessings--besides that they're our true gifts from God! :) I just hope I can be a good aunt...babysitting and helping to take care of them. I've not been so great at being nurturing lately, so hopefully I'll be able to rise to the occassion. At least by the time both babies are here, my classes won't take up so much time and I can really help out. Plus, I'll get to show them off to all my friends, they're gonna be good-looking kids you know. Runs in the family! hehehe :)
I have to say, I love my roomies. They really are amazing ladies. And I mean ladies in the true, old-fashioned sense of the word. They both have such grace, poise, and kindness. In the past month, they've really reminded me a lot about what it means to be a feminist. Now, I know, you're thinking, "where the heck did feminism come in to that equation??" Let me explain. Its more than the macro level of supporting women's rights and equality, and the rights of other oppressed groups (visit www.now.org for more info). But on the micro level too, being a strong supportive woman that other women can lean on, look up to, and feel support by. My roommates have done just that...not only for me but for others too. They impress me alot, and mostly when they think I don't notice. But I do, and I thank them for it.
So after all that rambling, I guess what I'm feeling is hope. And faith...feels like God is reaching out to me, and I'm reaching back. I've really missed Him.
PS I don't know who my mystery post-er is, but your support, especially through Him, has been like a light in a dark, scary storm. Knowing that another Christian is supporting me without identifying themselves really has really shown me a lot. I'm more grateful than you'll ever know. God bless!
PPS I miss you Shawn!! Hope you read this! I'm sorry I've been a crappy friend lately, but hopefully you know I love ya!