Friendships
So it has become more and more apparent over the past year or so that I am not good at parties. Whatsoever. I don't think this is a bad thing; it has just not been a fully realized fact in my brain until about now. I tend to stick to the corners or strike up conversations with a few select people. The couple of times I have thrown parties they have gone alright, but not smashing.
This is not a dire topic, just something I am noticing hindering me because most of the friends I have regularly party/have get togethers where they play video games, play beer pong, have campfires and such.
I am much better with a small group of people as opposed to a large one.
I am realizing more and more that many of the friends I hang out with give each other shit, by which I mean make fun of you when you say stupid things or nag you, but it is all in good fun. The problem is when they keep bringing up old things explicitly to embarrass you or attempt to make you feel bad about your ideas/opinions. But at the same time, I have many friends who seem to try to avoid confrontation at all. And I suppose I'm looking for the happy medium.
I want people who will call me on my bullshit, but still respect my beliefs, and I hope I can be that for my friends. But at the two extremes (never letting you forget anything and putting down all your ideas; never confronting you about anything and not letting you know when you're making bad decisions) are unhealthy, and I don't believe I'm out of line for wanting to steer clear of them.
There have always been a few people I could be truly myself with, and they were these type of people, who have not only their interests at heart, but mine, neither of us above the other, but each taking and giving fairly equally.
Not sure how I feel about continuing on LJ, but we'll see. It'll at least be interesting to keep this for 5 or 10 years and then look back on it to see what I felt was important.
This is not a dire topic, just something I am noticing hindering me because most of the friends I have regularly party/have get togethers where they play video games, play beer pong, have campfires and such.
I am much better with a small group of people as opposed to a large one.
I am realizing more and more that many of the friends I hang out with give each other shit, by which I mean make fun of you when you say stupid things or nag you, but it is all in good fun. The problem is when they keep bringing up old things explicitly to embarrass you or attempt to make you feel bad about your ideas/opinions. But at the same time, I have many friends who seem to try to avoid confrontation at all. And I suppose I'm looking for the happy medium.
I want people who will call me on my bullshit, but still respect my beliefs, and I hope I can be that for my friends. But at the two extremes (never letting you forget anything and putting down all your ideas; never confronting you about anything and not letting you know when you're making bad decisions) are unhealthy, and I don't believe I'm out of line for wanting to steer clear of them.
There have always been a few people I could be truly myself with, and they were these type of people, who have not only their interests at heart, but mine, neither of us above the other, but each taking and giving fairly equally.
Not sure how I feel about continuing on LJ, but we'll see. It'll at least be interesting to keep this for 5 or 10 years and then look back on it to see what I felt was important.