Sadness
Whenever I get sad, I always have a conversation with myself as to whether or not I should stay sad, or pluck up and keep on going. After all, being sad isn't necessarily a bad thing, but I get the feeling that I'm wasting my time crying when I could be doing something else. Is it a problem that I'm looking at emotions logically? I'm going to cry no matter what about certain things, I've accepted that, but whether or not I should cry is what I'm trying to get at.
Also, not really having anyone to share sadness with comes into play. If I talk to someone right after I get sad, does that make it better or worse? Better because I'm sharing and getting it off my chest or worse because I keep thinking about talking about it rather than letting it die and focusing on something else?
I don't have that many people that I can share it with anymore I don't think.
And when everyone's asking, I have to give some answer. So after a while I try not to let it show anymore, or I'm just so sick of everyone asking that I blow up at someone. Or change the subject. Yeah, suppression!
And if I have no one but myself to blame for the sadness, do I even have a right to be sad?
Also, not really having anyone to share sadness with comes into play. If I talk to someone right after I get sad, does that make it better or worse? Better because I'm sharing and getting it off my chest or worse because I keep thinking about talking about it rather than letting it die and focusing on something else?
I don't have that many people that I can share it with anymore I don't think.
And when everyone's asking, I have to give some answer. So after a while I try not to let it show anymore, or I'm just so sick of everyone asking that I blow up at someone. Or change the subject. Yeah, suppression!
And if I have no one but myself to blame for the sadness, do I even have a right to be sad?