ive failed myself
well i didnt do as i promised myself, but im cool with that...and besides as long as it gets done this week ill be done and i dont care about it anymore, (college apps if you havent guessed already)
anywho, these past few weeks have been some trying times for all of us it seems,...and after having my near death experience last night i concluded you gotta live every second till the second you die,...do what you want to do, and what is right, but dont take it up the ass just to make someones day,...im not saying necessarily to be mean or anything, but if you know you gotta do something, do it or say it i dont care.. it sure as hell beats the false characters i walk by each and every day..
i dont really know why i do this anymore because it doesnt even help me, and no one sees this anyway, even if they did it wouldnt change much but i guess having some recognition that im alive would be nice,..its alright though,...ive decided that people are fucking insane, and that if i were to have a bow unlimited arrows, and a number of other weapons and what not, i would very happily reside in the 1400's a wonderful time in my opinion, when living actually meant something...it meant that you could survive in the world, by tangible means,...
one class that really gets my blood pumping from time to time is ap gov and politics,....its extremely biased, and hypcrytical, and just a rediculous thing,...dont get me wrong it turns out i love the class, but just some of the issues that come up make me wanna put my head through the fucking wall...
thats one thing im tired of also, hypocratic people,...mainly the majority of people in school, agreeing along the same lines of my dear friend steve i've come to realize many things about people ive known in my high school days,...true in a school of our size its difficult to know everyone well enough to have a substantial thought, however i consider myself to know a fair share of people in our school and although im friends with many, many are not true friends,...its sad to say but there definetly has fallen a level system to the types of friends,...and its also tragic that the number of true friends has reached an all time low it seems...and in my opinion a true friend is when thats not afraid to tell you something, criticise you for your benefit (telling them that they're being an ass or something) and just be comfortable in any setting...and over the years ive come to realize the number falling...but in a way thats how i always wanted it,...i was always jealous of my brother for having his two best friends with whom he went everywhere with and did stuff with, common hobbies and what not,
having to write for college has opened my eyes a bit to the world around me, and i really see things in a brighter and stronger light now,...
i guess its true that college changes people...and to think im not even there yet...
oh and by the way this spring look for a new and improved me, because im holding true to an age old promise i made myself...
thats all for now, sorry if this upset you or anything, but i figured no one will read it anyhow so meh...
~ep
anywho, these past few weeks have been some trying times for all of us it seems,...and after having my near death experience last night i concluded you gotta live every second till the second you die,...do what you want to do, and what is right, but dont take it up the ass just to make someones day,...im not saying necessarily to be mean or anything, but if you know you gotta do something, do it or say it i dont care.. it sure as hell beats the false characters i walk by each and every day..
i dont really know why i do this anymore because it doesnt even help me, and no one sees this anyway, even if they did it wouldnt change much but i guess having some recognition that im alive would be nice,..its alright though,...ive decided that people are fucking insane, and that if i were to have a bow unlimited arrows, and a number of other weapons and what not, i would very happily reside in the 1400's a wonderful time in my opinion, when living actually meant something...it meant that you could survive in the world, by tangible means,...
one class that really gets my blood pumping from time to time is ap gov and politics,....its extremely biased, and hypcrytical, and just a rediculous thing,...dont get me wrong it turns out i love the class, but just some of the issues that come up make me wanna put my head through the fucking wall...
thats one thing im tired of also, hypocratic people,...mainly the majority of people in school, agreeing along the same lines of my dear friend steve i've come to realize many things about people ive known in my high school days,...true in a school of our size its difficult to know everyone well enough to have a substantial thought, however i consider myself to know a fair share of people in our school and although im friends with many, many are not true friends,...its sad to say but there definetly has fallen a level system to the types of friends,...and its also tragic that the number of true friends has reached an all time low it seems...and in my opinion a true friend is when thats not afraid to tell you something, criticise you for your benefit (telling them that they're being an ass or something) and just be comfortable in any setting...and over the years ive come to realize the number falling...but in a way thats how i always wanted it,...i was always jealous of my brother for having his two best friends with whom he went everywhere with and did stuff with, common hobbies and what not,
having to write for college has opened my eyes a bit to the world around me, and i really see things in a brighter and stronger light now,...
i guess its true that college changes people...and to think im not even there yet...
oh and by the way this spring look for a new and improved me, because im holding true to an age old promise i made myself...
thats all for now, sorry if this upset you or anything, but i figured no one will read it anyhow so meh...
~ep