stalker
So lately I've been feeling really off.. vertigo, head aches, loss of peripheral vision, random head rushes while sitting, shortened breath and lack of energy even while going up a few stairs.. I've been confused and doubting the things going on in my life at the moment, I've felt no motivation for the good grades I'm striving for and I've been getting well over the required 8 hours of sleep and still left dead tired at the end of the day.. if I was a hypochondriac (wait..I am..) I would think I had a brain tumour (I did..) however, with the help of my boyfriend I have concluded that there's been a bit of extra stress added to me (academic and emotional), the weather has been so messed up that I could be going through a winter depression type thing and I have a stalker.. who quite frankly is starting to scare the shit outta me and make me even more paranoid than I was before.. he's apparently being taken care of but it still makes me wonder how he knows my name, got mine and my boyfriend's email address and what the hell I did to piss him off so much that he apparently wants to "make sure nobody trusts [me], not even [my] family or pets" because apparently "nobody rejects [him] like [I] did and [he's] going to make sure I pay" .. I definetly don't know this guy but I think he was trying to pick my boyfriend's lock tonight.. before bolting at the top of his stairs..at first I thought he was just trying to stir up some trouble online but now I'm convinced he's psychotic and actually believes he knows me and was with me at one point.. or at least wanted to be and I didn't give him a chance.. I know this because not only does he know my name (and how to spell it) he knows where I was last night..tim hortons on the other side of town in the middle of night.. that can't be coincidence.. so now I'm going to convince myself my health will improve when I forget about the bad things and just focus on summer vacation..so soon.. and stop thinking so much.. stop worrying about nonsense things..about something I'm not giving a chance to improve.. there's my rant for the day (night) anyway.. can't sleep much and I want so badly to call in sick to work but since I'll be making $15.50 an hour tommorow I can't.. because I want financial freedom.. because I will have financial freedom by going to work on Sundays and making that extra $4 an hour and I will get my grades simply by using that extra morning time I have proficiently and studying effectively.. which I actually got some excellent tips in an email newsletter I'm signed up to.. so I'll get through it and the sunshine will be back before I know it.. I'm holding on to that for now.. by a thread