Good enough
I love the song 'Good Enough' by Dodgy, featured on one of my favourite soundtracks, the Romeo & Juliet OST. I've been listening to it a lot and was so inspired that I finally said out loud what I have thought since forever. Come to think of it, I do completely disregard people whom I don't consider like minded enough to be part of my inner circle. Which I maintain is my sovereign right and perogative. Perhaps my standards are too rigid and archaic because I haven't been able to include many people I've met here. I'm not picky at all. I love people. All kinds of people! The thing is that in my bid to try to include everyone I meet in the circle, I expose myself to people who are just so vastly different that I just can't fathom their behavior, life goals, etc. And I'm no one to judge them, ok, maybe I judge them a little. Different doesn't mean bad. I'm just not inclined to be bossom buddies with them or treat them with high regard because I simply cannot bring myself to. One man's meat is another man's poison. It's not a concept that's too abstract to understand right? Of course, I could work on a few things. During a phone conversation with Gywn, I remarked that I thought I was a really nice person, and she said, 'Yeah, really nice. To people you like, if not, you are super condescending.' I always thought that I was pretty discreet but apparently not. Which should be something I shall fix tout suite.
I wish to accept myself for who I am so that I won't have to constantly feel bad for doing the things I do. Because who I am is who I am. And there's no amount of word gymnastics or feeling manipulation that I can wrangle, that will change the fact that sometimes, I do judge, I do look down on, I do pity, I do despise, I do scoff, I do disregard, I do condescend. People do all the above all the time, it's human nature. But I'm the only true one, the only idiot, I daresay, who actually says it out loud. And I think I'm all the better for admitting to do so.
I wish to accept myself for who I am so that I won't have to constantly feel bad for doing the things I do. Because who I am is who I am. And there's no amount of word gymnastics or feeling manipulation that I can wrangle, that will change the fact that sometimes, I do judge, I do look down on, I do pity, I do despise, I do scoff, I do disregard, I do condescend. People do all the above all the time, it's human nature. But I'm the only true one, the only idiot, I daresay, who actually says it out loud. And I think I'm all the better for admitting to do so.