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R.I.P AUDRI RESPICIO
i stare at her picture, the one of me and her on my cellphone. she was so alive...she was so healthy. who could've known. who could've known that God would decide to make her one of his newest angels? i laugh, a sad laugh, and smile, a sad one, when i remember her snarky comebacks. her sarcasm always made you laugh. she was tough for person with her height. never let anyone beat her down just because she was short. she always came out on top, no matter how exhausted, how hard she worked for it, she always came out on top. behind that tough little girl exterior, she's a caring and nice person.
i hope she knows how much i miss her. and i'm sorry...sorry for taking her last few moments here for granted. i didn't worry because i trusted God to take care of her. to work one of his miracles on her. to make her better and greet us with a smile. we didn't worry because we knew she wouldn't give up without a fight. i feel so bad because we never ever got to say how much we love her so much. how much we miss her. we never got a chance to say goodbye. and how much it hurts to know that we'll never enjoy her presence again.
i hope she knows. i hope she hears our hearts breaking because she's not here. i hope she sees how each one is filled with so much love for her. i hope she knows that she's given up a wake up call, that our time here on earth is limited, so do as much as you can with the time you have and say to each one of your loved ones how much you adore them. i hope she knows that with this revealed knowledge, we will gain the strength to go on. and as we move towards our futures, her spirit remains in our minds and in our hearts.
i was never given a chance to say goodbye. so, audri, thank you. thank you for your friendship. i never got a chance to say how much i value it but i do. for one last time, goodbye. i'll miss you.