it's real.....
So it is real. I am actually working my last shift as an RN. I am working my last night shift and I am working for the last time, likely, in bone marrow transplant. It feels good- it feels kind of surreal. For 10 years when some one has asked me "what do you do...." my reply has been simply "I am a nurse, I work in critical care". No so much, after tonight. I mean, I am still a nurse- always will be. However, I am a nurse practitioner now and my roles and job are VERY different.
Its all good---- I am excited. It's change and I think it's normal to hesitate with change. .....gulp.
I have been hired at The Mazzoni Center here in Philly. It is the kind of job I have wanted forever. I have a few random crushes on some of the staff there already, it is a very supportive environment for me to learn in and I am happy to be a new member of the clinical team there. I get to work for the GLBT community and just be me---- imagine that?!?!
I am sitting for Board Certification on Tuesday and FUCK am I nervous. Again, normal, I know. I am ready- as ready as I can be. It's just such a huge exam and so much is riding on my passing. I get kind of nauseous when I think to myself "....what am I going to do if I don't pass???" argh. that would be pretty devastating. ok, breathe.
My head is busy, to say the least. I am trying hard to focus and stay cool. I am trying to spend as much time with my daughter as I can. She has learned to giggle, which is amazingly funny.
Because I am working so much, Erin taped her and sent me the YouTube link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fyyCXzY4KDc
This makes me smile every time I hear/see it, no matter what my mood is.
So I will go now and be a nurse again until 7am. Then I will empty my locker, clean out my mailbox and say good bye to this weird world of bone marrow transplant.
Its all good---- I am excited. It's change and I think it's normal to hesitate with change. .....gulp.
I have been hired at The Mazzoni Center here in Philly. It is the kind of job I have wanted forever. I have a few random crushes on some of the staff there already, it is a very supportive environment for me to learn in and I am happy to be a new member of the clinical team there. I get to work for the GLBT community and just be me---- imagine that?!?!
I am sitting for Board Certification on Tuesday and FUCK am I nervous. Again, normal, I know. I am ready- as ready as I can be. It's just such a huge exam and so much is riding on my passing. I get kind of nauseous when I think to myself "....what am I going to do if I don't pass???" argh. that would be pretty devastating. ok, breathe.
My head is busy, to say the least. I am trying hard to focus and stay cool. I am trying to spend as much time with my daughter as I can. She has learned to giggle, which is amazingly funny.
Because I am working so much, Erin taped her and sent me the YouTube link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fyyCXzY4KDc
This makes me smile every time I hear/see it, no matter what my mood is.
So I will go now and be a nurse again until 7am. Then I will empty my locker, clean out my mailbox and say good bye to this weird world of bone marrow transplant.