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brilliance,
a heart of gold,
and a voice that whispers, "i am wholly miserable."
angela and i aren't dating anymore.
the past two months felt like an eternity this morning. by this afternoon, they felt like they passed in the blink of an eye.
i've tried to keep myself busy. if i sit still long enough, i start to brood and my stomach crawls up my throat. i paid for a ticket i got a couple days ago and cashed in $75 worth of pocket change. i went for a walk and drank an odwalla. i smelled the air on the street where i live. i tore down nearly everything on the walls in my room and got rid of an entire garbage bag worth of clothes i never wear anymore. i'm taking baby steps towards becoming an adult because i'm fucking sick of how pathetic my life has come to be. the biggest positive influence on my development as an upstanding, responsible human being just walked out the door.
i'm very depressed. i'm very confused. i have millions of questions, but i won't like the answers. no one likes to get dumped, right? try to think of all the shitty times. try to think of reasons to hate her. it's not working.
were the shitty times ever so shitty? did they warrant this?
it's 4:45 in the morning. she'd just now be leaving the warmth of my bed.
stop doing this, josh.
a heart of gold,
and a voice that whispers, "i am wholly miserable."
angela and i aren't dating anymore.
the past two months felt like an eternity this morning. by this afternoon, they felt like they passed in the blink of an eye.
i've tried to keep myself busy. if i sit still long enough, i start to brood and my stomach crawls up my throat. i paid for a ticket i got a couple days ago and cashed in $75 worth of pocket change. i went for a walk and drank an odwalla. i smelled the air on the street where i live. i tore down nearly everything on the walls in my room and got rid of an entire garbage bag worth of clothes i never wear anymore. i'm taking baby steps towards becoming an adult because i'm fucking sick of how pathetic my life has come to be. the biggest positive influence on my development as an upstanding, responsible human being just walked out the door.
i'm very depressed. i'm very confused. i have millions of questions, but i won't like the answers. no one likes to get dumped, right? try to think of all the shitty times. try to think of reasons to hate her. it's not working.
were the shitty times ever so shitty? did they warrant this?
it's 4:45 in the morning. she'd just now be leaving the warmth of my bed.
stop doing this, josh.